when thoughts are disclosed

free

2011-05-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

i have done my sentences,
so i deserve to enjoy every bit of freedom.

p/s: i am not an ex-convict, hello...

deutschland...

2011-04-16T08:25:00.000-07:00

i confided to my family about my wish to further my study in germany n my dad went cynical and was like 'r u serious? who's going to pay all the fees n stuff?' n i was taken aback n disappointed about him not showing his support to me... daddy, i will work hard n save up much much money to afford myself in germany... mummy, i will make myself become fluent in german... die ende

that was quite a match...

2010-12-29T07:38:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah, malaysia won..
i think the goal keeper really nailed it..
he can be the second manuel neuer.
enough said.
iam really proud.

the only thing i think is YOU...

2010-12-28T06:19:00.000-08:00

the saying 'when u tried ur best but u dont succeed' is really killing me..
iam scared if it doesn't go on my way..
iam scared that this thing doesnt do any justice to me..

i've been after this one big thing for the whole year..
now iam trying my best n i know i deserve to win..

O Allah i seek for your mercy..please guide me whenever i seem to be lost, n please guide me whenever i am in the right track so that i dont cross the line.

this i promise you

2010-12-20T08:08:00.000-08:00

i'll take them to places that they have not been to,

i'll buy them fancy cars,

i'll build them a mansion,

i know they dont really need pricey things and money, all they need is love. all they need is having me by their side. but giving love isnt that much, but it will be thoughtful and nicer enough for me to spend some quids to make them happy.
insya Allah...

negativity is killing me..

2010-11-16T07:42:00.000-08:00

hari ini, sy tolong mama masak sbb esok kan da nak raya haji. before that i made a promise to my mum that i would wake up earlier in the morning (memandangkan sy selalu bgn at 12pm juz because of i cant take a slightest temptation to go off bed). so i woke up at 9 am, feeling dizzy sebab mlm td tdo pkul 2.45 (was watching sundal bolong) n made myself go to the kitchen...kerja2 menggoreng dan memotong bawang, halia, n stuff pun da bermula....

mama really relied on me to help her prepare the meals disebabkan kakak2 sy pergi bekerja. ayah buat ketupat n it just left me n mama in the kitchen. sambil2 menggoreng ayam utk dibuat ayam kicap, sy pun ambil kesempatan utk makan breakfast iaitu pancakes from mcd yg dibeli oleh angah. entah mcm mana lps tu sy tiba2 rasa sakit perut..then i made an excuse from mama to go to the toilet.. next i took a shower n changed my clothes n tiba2 rasa mengantuk n terus landing kat katil...zzzzzzz...

sy bgn pkul 2.05 pm dan fikir kerja masak ayam kicap x siap lg... i headed to the kitchen, feeling a pang of agony n annoyed... sy pun masak dlm keadaan x da mood. sampai bibik pun takut nak tegur..hahah dia pun terkejut tengok cara sy membaling bawang2 dlm periuk utk ditumis...tengah masak2, tiba2 kucing sy curi satu ketul ayam kat dapur, i was pissed n said the F word...n then i said S__T. wow..i supposed i should not have said the words so loud that everyone could hear the words.. i know everyone swears but i just crossed the line...i even made faces to my sister, just to let her know how tired i was doing all these stuff...i know what i did was wrong n i just could not help myself out. it just came out..

i thought, i was just making things up. i always make the smallest become the biggest...in the end, it turned out well n the lauk tasted really good n i could smile again. sy tahu sy x patut melepaskan kemarahan sy kat org lain..kita kena ikhlas buat sesuatu kan? n i learn from it..mistakes dont mean a thing if u dont regret them..

to my family, i really am sorry...

till then..

happy birthday lahmy....

2010-11-11T00:10:00.000-08:00

i once made a saying that not in a million years i would ever watch soccer or football because i found it annoying and was a stupid game. well it was ages ago. n now things have changed n i would never thought that i could be so into football thingy. it was all because of the 2010 world cup n i glued myself infront of the tv just to watch my favourite team which was germany (n still is germany) play the match even though it was 2-4 in the morning. i loved how they forfeited england n argentina n they were all just stunning.

lahm is cute isnt he? he really melts my heart (owh i sounded like a teeny bopper when seeing cute guys huh? did i?)...he's considered one of the best defenders in the world n is my favourite player. he doesnt score many for germany, but when he does, it goes whoooaaaa. he captained the germans at the world cup n i must say he did a good job. i still dont get it why they returned the arm band to ballack(: i still hope that lahm will stay as a captain.

its never too late to wish my favorite captain happy birthday. i hope he will score as many as he can. i cant wait to see him play at the next euro n world cup.

philipp lahm ist der beste (am trying to learn german but learning it makes my mouth dry..)

till then.

who the hell are you?

2010-10-31T09:25:00.000-07:00

i know that blog is not a place to burst out any emotional or raging feeling but...i just cant help myself out...

u r so annoying..please leave.

kucing lagi...

2010-10-30T08:53:00.000-07:00

angah suggested my kitten should be named PRADA...i repeat PRADA....

i was like, huh? r u serious? does my kitten deserve to have that kind of name? ye la kan kucing kampung je, lain la kalau kucing parsi...

tapi apa salahnya kan?? suka hati i la nak nama apa untuk anak kucing i...as long as it reads DESIGNER CLOTHES...

till then, gute nacht (i love anthing that labels GERMANY-the language, philipp lahm, bayern munich, tokio hotel, n the list goes on.... )

im homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2010-10-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

sudah lama x update blog.....
iam trying so hard to make my fingers type something and whatever stuff that caught my eyes recently...so it wont be left out again....sorry blogku..it was never my intention to neglect u....

so im home now...balik utk cuti 3 minggu...its weird though sbb x exam lagi n nanti kena blk upsi lagi utk exam... n tell me this - r u expecting me to STUDY at home??? im not sure coz there are tons of things yg saya betul2 enjoy nak wat kat umah n lupa nak study...then bile da abis exam cuti lagi 3 mgu!!!!

i just indulged my dad by giving him belgian chocolate ice cream from haagen dazs that i bought just now....it was a pleasure by seeing daddy eat that ice cream...i dont care how much does it cost...as long as it makes my him happy...
owh ade 1 lagi bekas ice cream x makan lagi...maybe nanti nak mkn dengan mummy plak...oopsss mummy da jealous....

owh my kittens are soooo cute....cant wait to see them grow up...dan leh wat toilet training utk my kittens....x de la berak sepah2 kat rumah...nti kena buang dengan mama....

kat rumah still kena masak n do other chores....x leh depends kat bibik je.... huuhuh...tp saya x kisah...asalkan dpat bahagiakan mama n ayah kat umah..saya nak masak sedap2....

till then, bye

that was superb

2010-07-03T10:54:00.000-07:00

i never thought that the germans could be soooo strong to win this game...

yeah as the saying goes 'forfeit the game before somebody else' n they did prove it....

n i cant believe that this world cup thingy really interests me to stick infront of the tv..something that i havent done before...

xoxo

budak setan and a rush of blood to the head..

2010-06-26T11:03:00.000-07:00

as long as i am called an audience, i have the rights to voice my opinion on a movie that i've watched which is "da nama BUDAK SETAN kenalah tonjolkan sikit ke SETANannya n there werent many scenes that showed the character of BUDAK SETAN" (frankly speaking)..

but it was a good movie, walaupun saya rase banyak kelemahannya, n im not going to say much about this because iam not an expert in movies thingy neither i am a movie critic..just wanna say, kudos to all of them that were in that movie..

i just had a rush of blood to the head when i was watching a match between uruguay and korea..tak senang duduk saya dibuatnya bila tengok korea berhempas pulas nak jaringkan gol but in the end they lost to uruguay (2-1)... anyway...u guys did good job... u just made all asians be proud of you...

xoxo

baby, baby, baby oohhhhhhhhhhhh

2010-06-24T10:40:00.000-07:00

well that's justin bieber n he's cute isnt he? he's waayyyyyyyy more younger than me n he's only 16. come to think of it i feel like im getting oldddd....ahhaha if i could be 15 again, i would have a big teenage crush on him..

he's the newest teen pop sensation after usher (he's his mentor), justin timberlake, nick carter back in the 90's n his songs are catchy n his song, one time keeps blaring in my eardrum...

just now, to my dismay, my nephews were singing 'baby, baby, baby oohhhhh..'. that was sweet huh?? i bet muaz learned that from school n aniq i never taught him that song but i guess he just listened that song from the radio..

wow..how cool children nowadays are...

xoxo

k stands for korea

2010-06-22T11:46:00.000-07:00

the world is having a world cup fever..

i cant help myself to sneak out watching a match during my sleep time though am not an avid fan of football..

n now am watching a match between korea n nigeria..

n i choose korea..

n now nigeria is leading the game..1-0

no worries..the koreans will have the strength to defeat the nigerians...

u have plenty of times..just keep fighting korea!

xoxo

boy im in love with kwon sang woo...

2010-06-18T11:00:00.001-07:00

i know i am not REALLY a big fan of korean dramas but this man really turns me on ever since i watched stairway to heaven. God knows how i admire this kind of guy. a guy that i can bring back home n meet my mom n have lunch together n go out shopping together n have a nice talk together n what else???

what happened last week

2010-06-16T08:54:00.000-07:00

so i just came back from saigon n it was great. i wont put the pictures that i snapped in saigon coz u can take a look at them on facebook. what i want to write about is the conclusion that i can summarize during my 4 days n 3 nights stay in saigon n how the stay has changed my view n perspective on certain things that i think might be intriguing enough for people to ponder back what they have done and do in this world..so here goes...

we (9 people only including my parents' friends n i am the youngest one) arrived there around 2 pm n were picked up by our tour guide named sa ki ah (i dont know how the spelling of his name goes like but the pronunciation is just like that). we were tired of course but excited enough to sightsee the Saigon city (now is known as Ho Chi Minh). jalan kat sane sgt sibuk n bising sebab diorg guna motor as the main mean of transportation. diorg ckp klu naik motor romantik..hahahh. whatever. there, i could see that vietnam is still developing, x byk bgnn besar n tinggi mcm kat kl tp da cukup memadai bg org kat sane n i am sure that someday they can beat us coz they are very commited to do their work n very hardworking. diorg tahu diorg susah tp it is not a lame reason to give up n end up being a beggar. diorg still bole survive even they just earn 10k vietnames dong (seringgit lebih duit malaysia) a day to make a living. tapi sikit2 pun lama2 jd bukit, kan? then, after 20 minutes we arrived at kingston hotel. its a 3 star hotel but yet very cozy n we stayed at the 9th floor. lepas unpacked my belongings, i decided that i had to have a nap for a while sbb mase tu pening kepala n it really kept me in agony n i refused to do anything but sleep. tp lps tu pakcik sorang ni which is my dad's friend yg ikut trip ni gave us a ring n asked us whether we wanted to go sightseeing around the town n we obliged. sy x jadi nak tidur n i had to use this opportunity to see the life of vietnamese n learn their culture (this is the number one rule if u r travelling abroad). we went to ben thanh market which is the most popular place to shop as they say it gives u the best price of stuff to purchase but actually it doesnt. harga brg kat sane pun lebih kurang kat malaysia n harga buah semuanye quite pricey. but u have to bargain n u can have the lowest price of stuff u want to buy. i didnt really enjoy shopping there. i just bought souvenir from my friends n mama beli kain utk baju raye kitorg utk tahun ni (tp sy da byk da kain n sy nak pkai kain vietnam tu utk th depan je la). that night, we had dinner at a muslim restaurant (i forgot the name) n the food was good. alhamdulillah ade jugak kedai mkn halal kat sini sebab x ramai org islam kat vienam.

the next day, we had breakfast at the hotel. kat meja tu ade jugak mknn yg x halal n we just took bread, pancakes, fruit n orange juice only tp sudah memadai utk mengisi perut. then, we had our first journey to go to Cu Chi Tunnels that took around 1 hour 20 minutes to go there. i think this was the most exciting place to visit sepanjang sy berada di sane sbb i was interested to get to know well about the war between vietnam n america. cu chi tunnels is a historic place for the local people especially for the soldiers to fight against the enemy (american soldiers) for saving the country. they built the tunnels to hide themselves from the enemy. i was given a chance to be in the tunnel for minutes n i considered myself lucky to feel the hurdle that they went through for years. i could not imagine they lived, ate, slept, n gave birth in that tunnel n my hair stood still n i was shivering to be there. agak seram sy rase sbb kat tmpt tu da ramai tentera mati around 11k ppl. tp sy sgt seronok dpt berjalan, merangkak dlm terowong tu. memang best. not to forget, they made weapons n trap using bamboo n stuff to attack the enemy. now i realized how smart n cunning they were at that time although they had some restraints on having hi-tech weapons n stuff like the americans had. i myself admit that the tunnels were undetectable to be recognized n i think that was a big victory for vietnamese. the americans might be physically fit with weapons n stuff, but the vietnamese were mentally fit with brilliant ideas to protect their country..bagi sy lebih baik kita bijak menggunakan akal fikiran dr hanya bergantung pada kekuatan fizikal semata2. dan sy rase sgt geram dgn amerika dan juga kuasa2 besar yg lain mcm israel yg dulu smpai skrg x henti2 menyeksa org palestin..bom yg digunakan oleh tentera amerika time perang vietnam tu bole bg effect kat diorg smpai 3 generasi sampai ade ibu mengandung yg terkena effect tu lahirkan anak cacat, ade kanser dan mcm2 lagi.

keesokan harinya, kitorg naik bot kat sg mekong. this is the biggest delta in SEA. i still remember when i was in junior high, i learned about mekong delta in geography though i sucked at it. nvr mind. time has passed n i learned that this delta is used by the local people to make a living by fishing, selling fruits on a boat, n so on. i really enjoyed being on a boat as the view really soothed my feeling.

n finally the last day on tour arrived dan kami berlepas dr saigon pd pukul 5 pm n sampai kl pd pkul 7. im gonna miss saigon so much as it taught me many things like being hardworking at work, determined to defeat somebody that threatens ur life n the most important thing is u have to believe in every potential u have inside as it can change the world n in the end, it makes you shine n people wont underestimate you like what did the local people achieve during the war time.

xoxo

it was good but i had to go...

2010-06-14T10:48:00.000-07:00

damn, now i miss saigon....

i so dont want to be like becky bloomwood

2010-06-03T09:25:00.000-07:00

hello..

now im filling up my holiday by sticking to all the shopaholic series n sophie k novels..(minus shopaholic takes manhattan, remember me, n the undomestic goddess yg da bace kat library)...

i must admit that all of them are addictive n i keep on reading the books..

the character of becky bloomwood is very amusing n i find it very entertaining when she tries to solve her financial problems due to her habit which is shopping...

but one thing that annoys me is she keeps buying stuff that is beyond her need..yeah i mean sometimes i do the same thing too when i have money n there's a big sale that makes me splurge in every shop i like but i think i wont be like becky who buys a dining table with 10 chairs for 2 units n it makes her husband go mad enough...

hopefully, one day, if i get a job, n can afford myself, i wont buy a pair of jimmy choo's because i know i wont get the chance to have it (there's a pair of strappy shoes from jimmy choo that costs RM 24 000) unless im married to a datuk or tan sri...

clarks is the better choice..or hush puppies....

can'tttttttt waitttttttttttttttt

2010-05-30T09:43:00.000-07:00

this is my anticipation..i cant wait to buy this book actually...it will be released in september this year n i'll make sure that im gonna get mine coz sophie k is my fav author...n i read all her books...they r very appetizing like chocolate muffins that smell sooo good n make me want to enjoy eating every single bite...( same goes to the book la n i enjoy reading every page..n the title is the appetizer..)

n one thing...

lp's latest album which according to mike will be out at the end of this year..

hope it turns out well n the songs r not like what i heard in mtm's album...im expecting some fresh, energetic, emo, metal songs..

n i must confess that i miss the old lp( hybrid theory's the best..)

am off now...see u later.

this ends right now

2010-01-13T23:22:00.000-08:00

u must be devoting your whole life to her.

untitled

2009-12-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

woman ate woman. where was her sympathy though? why was she so mean? where was her heart? was this some kind of revenge of what she had gone through n did no justice to the underprivileged?

so pathetic

im hollow

2009-12-23T05:52:00.000-08:00

like bella says in new moon, 'there's a hole that has been punched in my chest'.

i kinda feel the same way too.

i feel breathless.

my vision seems blur with tears embroidered my eyes.

my whole body aches.

i cant think, my head is numb.

i cant eat, my mouth is too remote to accept food.

-i dont know what im saying right now, i hate failing, n i hate the test.

bff

2009-12-14T08:26:00.000-08:00

in a changing room. we were trying to fit ourselves in all the stuff that were about to buy later. sambil try baju2 baru, we took pics dan agak lame gak menghabiskan sesi fotografi. n i was pretty sure that people out there, lining up n waiting for us were annoyed by this. ala. lantak hang la nak pikiq apa pon, aslkan kite enjoy kan anem....heehheh...

dining time. lps shopping we needed to fill up our tummy with yummy meals from mcd. btw, thanks anem for treating me..in this pic, sy telah menyarung kemeja baru yg dibeli n made it as a jacket. yeah. kind of. talk about enthusiasm ppl..

ini dia girlfriend sy, inda hanim yg bkl jd arkitek soon... wei nti ko design rumah baru ak, k. my wish is your command tau!

candid!

so long people, time ni nak blk n i was hoping that we were not gonna be disturbed again by org gila yg suke ckp sorg2 kat komuter.. kesian anem x pasal2 layan org gila tu...hahaahha..

ok. anem, w/pun ak x smpt nak peluk cium ko mase ko nak kuar dari komuter tu, coz it was flooded by pppl coming in n going out, ak ttp bole cium ko kat gambar ni kan...oopssss, hehhe, dont get me wrong....im not @#$%&*!....stop thinking fishy here.....

Al Fatihah...

2009-12-12T07:42:00.000-08:00

Al-Fatihah to Ustaz Arman, may he rest in Peace...

i will never forget the first day i started learning with him till the last day it ended..

thanks so much ustaz...

i really appreciate of what you did to me...

you will be remembered throughout my life...

just keep fighting back ustaz, we all love you

2009-12-08T08:42:00.000-08:00

now, all my doas are going to ustaz arman, the one who taught me arabic in maahad. he has a stroke n in a critical condition-that was what my mom said to me this morning. im sad coz he did something noble to me, taught me tirelessly n put a lot of hard work to make me understand arabic eventhough i wasnt too good at it, n suddenly he gets sick in such young age. mama pun sedih, maybe da anggap ustaz mcm adiknya sendiri n mama sayang kat ustaz jugak sbb ustaz ajar bagus kat sekolah dan sebagai pengetua masa tu, of course la mama was proud of him.

ustaz, stay strong n get better soon. everyone loves you.

Ya Allah sembuhkanlah penyakit guru ku ini...

two is better than one

2009-12-08T00:28:00.000-08:00

i miss you...
badly, seriously.....

you know what, you should go listen to 'two is better than one' coz it depicts my feelings and thoughts....

but come to think of it, it's so stupid, listening to that 24/7 where i know it doesnt benifit me at all coz its thoughtful enough that you are too far away from me....

i dont know whether i can get to see you soon....

hope that i can live longer and so can you....

take care, will see you then...

xoxo

people named robert

2009-12-03T09:01:00.000-08:00

well, there are 2 people named ROBERT that i am currently in love with.. and i want nothing but them....seriously they really turn me ON.

this is ROBERT GREGORY BOURDON n is well known as the drummer of lp and i have been into him since i was 13. he is all the reason of why i LOVE men with beard. ahahhaha. but actually not all men are good with it, and rob is the only one who looks ok with it and i cant agree more.

and this is the hottest vampire on earth named ROBERT THOMAS PATTINSON and fans address him as just robert pattinson. and as you all know (if u dont, ur ignorance isnt bliss) he plays edward cullen in twilight n new moon. oh unfortunately i havent got a chance to watch the movies. n the worse part is the twilight dvd that ipa gave me the other day didnt work out n i could not watch it. n rite now im on a verge of buying that cd, n im gonna watch new moon in cinema soon. i only fantasize edward by reading the twilight n new moon books ( ipa, if u r reading this please hand me the other two books ASAP). i wish i could be bella, the girl that edward likes so much n i really fucking love how edward treats bella. n i love to be his partner in biology class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously, the books have become my bibles.

i think people named robert are destined to be handsome, dark, tall......as the list goes on.

xoxo

lust

2009-12-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

did you ever do something that you knew it was wrong but you felt good at it?

and it is called nafsu. sesungguhnya nafsu itu adalah syaitan.

xoxo

emo

2009-11-30T08:32:00.000-08:00

in 2000, when i was 12, i was so into britney. all her songs were kept in my mind. one song that i loved singing at that time was born to make you happy. that time, i didnt really know what the entire lyrics was all about, i just knew that someone was born to make people around him happy, and i never found out what it actually really meant in a deeper view.

now i know. the song is dedicated to all people. lovers, parents, siblings you name it. and i have my own interpretation and conscience about that song. i really see it as a mother-daughter song. about the relationship. and it has sentimental values. but one thing that makes me think deeper is that was i really born to make my mother happy? has she been happy through out these 21 years? i know i have caused her lots of troubles and i am yet a troublesome. sometimes i think i am such a burden and i dont grow up according to her plan. now i really hate the word happy, thinking that i wont find happiness though i keep on searching perfection that might lead to happiness. and i let myself down again.

even if i say it will be alright, but actually it wont.
still i hear me say i want to end my life.
now and again i try to stay strong and alive.
and i know its never too late to make my mom happy.

hope that you are patient enough to see the difference.

xoxo

good days at home

2009-11-28T08:35:00.000-08:00

What's up peeps....

just came back from penang visiting ipa and her family. we stayed there for about 3 days. ipa has made a decision to quit working for a while to focus on her 2 kids. and i am thoughtful enough that after this my pocket money will become less and less. ehhehe. well its alright. i dont care much. her children take more priority over her brat little sisiter, kan? hahahah. so for the 'kind of' last contribution ( i hope not) that ipa made was buying me a nike handbag that i love so much. thanks ipa. love ya..

nur kasih has just ended and i think it gives an impact to people especially those who are not a crybaby, like my sister, tika. i never saw her cry and this drama really made her cry. hahahha. speaking of nur kasih, i should have watched it from the very first episode. i never thought that this was actually good and all i can do right now is tuning to tv3 at 7.30 pm every mon- fri to catch all the episodes that ive missed.

staying at home makes me crave for fooooooooooooddddd. i eat a lot and keep rummaging food in my fridge. i think i have gained some weight and fyi, i cannot wear ima's levis jeans coz my peha doesnt fit with it... aarggh malunya...i wonder why ima's getting skinnier ek lately? hhahaah its karma. i used to tease her 'gemuk' when i was little and now iam the one who has that biggggggg thigh.

just made brownies and everyone loved it and am proud to say that it was my first attempt..

ok. gonna finish up reading twilight. toodles....

xoxo

rob

2009-11-18T10:03:00.000-08:00

well, rob has changed his look and i find it disgusting. ooopsss sorry, i really hate his new appearance. just look at his new hair cut which is long and quite messy. seriously it sucks.

rob, you upset me. i just dont get it. what were you thinking of getting your hair done and ended up being like this? stop destroying yourself.

yeah, i prefer this most. i love his previous hair cut which was short and spiky and cute also.

tilll then

xoxo

i was stupid

2009-11-18T07:15:00.000-08:00

if i could turn back time,
mahu saja saya pergi ke minggu lepas,
why?
sebab saya ada 7 hari untuk baca buku falsafah,
but i had taken for granted,
mentang2 ada banyak hari,
so i said to myself that 'oh, i have so freaking enough time, so why bother to study earlier?'
jadi saya banyak habiskan masa dengan menghadap facebook,
like almost everyday i did this rather than facing my own intellectual book,
lagi satu masa tu asyik fikir nak balik je,
so i was quite disrupted by this childish anticipation,
jadi agak terganggu untuk belajar,
yeah im emotional right know,
falsafah agak gila susah,
n it really baffled me while answering that damn hard questions,
jadi saya nak luahkan semua ni kat blog,
some say that emo people are good at writing,
am really dreading of what kind of result that im gonna get,
aaaahhhh forget it, but hopefully it'll turn out well.

till then,
xoxo

laut makes me calmer

2009-10-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

laut, somewhere in manjung perak. the pic was taken on sept 4th, the day that my group made an observation on a boy who has cerebral palsy. after that, we stayed in ida's house for a while. while waiting for breaking the fast, we were off to this such beautiful (bole tahan laa) place. seriously, it made my day easier. i wish i could stay there longer, where no one could disturb me, where i could make a sweet escape n run away from any misery business,

gosh, tak pernah plak before this pakai baju kurung. tepi laut plak tu. hahah it was because i observed that boy at a gov school so kena pakai yg sopan sikit laa..(berlatarbelakangkan kwn2 saya yg tgh kutip ape ntah..)

ok. that's it. later i'll upload some stories here.

till next time, xoxo

of many things...

2009-09-22T09:44:00.000-07:00

salam...
da lama x update blog..
feels like its been ages since i last wrote any...
hepi eid mubarak ppl...
da 3 hari beraya tp x rasa raya pun...
angah was off to johor, li was off to singapore n uja was off to her in laws'...
sume nye beraya kat in laws'...
gilir2 pulak kan... last year was at bangi n this year raya kat umah in laws...
yela kan marriage needs mutual respect?
heheh maybe sbb we didnt go back to our kampung coz ipa has just delivered her baby so it might be evil for us to leave her n the baby alone while we were enjoying the raya celebration in kg...
so x pela..x kisah pun actually..
being in bangi je pun best gak...
n i keep rummaging all the balangs of kuih raya in the kitchen coz i cant really get enough of stuffing all these sweet things into my mouth...
n thanks for the duit raya i got from my family...
nak g shopping? am not sure....
need to save up a lil bit...
just bought a nice baju that can be worn in class...
that is worth 99 bucks...
hahhaah i kidded u already...
mmg la harga die RM99 but it has less up to 50%.. so u do the math k...
it is from nicole btw...
n i just bought a new novel called 'my sister's keeper' for me to kill the time reading it eventhough i havent done my essay on cerebral palsy... hehheh
talking about wasting time huh??
but actually i havent read it coz i let ipa read it first...
yela kan kalau dok breastfeed baby je boring so she needs something to ignite her day so she does the 2 things simultaneously...
hum ape lg nak membebel...
i miss my cat seriously...
n i miss andy...

till next time, xoxo

another backstabber

2009-09-22T09:25:00.000-07:00

betul la kan org ckp..
kwn boleh jd lwn...
n i got my own story to tell n the saying really suits with this girl that happened to be my good friend...
n now she turns out to be the biggest enemy ever
tp for god sake i dont want to say her name nor type it down ...
i guess she doesnt know that i have dumped her coz im not a person who likes to come clean or terus terang to someone that has taken a go on me, who has backstabbed me, who has betrayed me, or any manner that can describe how truly bitchy she is....
sape yg mkn cili terasa la pedasnye kan?

btw no wonderla my friends pun tak suke ngan this person...

till next time, xoxo

u know u love me

2009-08-04T10:02:00.000-07:00

seriously, cuti seminggu ni hasnt been awesome sgt pun. entahla staying at kab is preferred. my heart longs to return to kab where i can meet up my friends n finish up the assignments. memang la kat umah pun bole siapkan assignment kan? tp i choose kab over my own house....

but there's a wisdom behind it....

i got to watch the season 2 of gossip girl. baru je tgk. i was ignorant about it being screened on 8tv. sungguh malang nasib ku where i have missed out the previous episodes. i started to watch the latest episode today n it made me look like a dumb ass, mulut ternganga x sudah sbb x tau what's happening now between blair, serena, nate, chuck, dan, n jenny. all i could do was pretending to be absorbed in the story. x syok betul tgk gossip girl td. it feels like i want to buy the dvds. im addicted to it...x kira nak beli gak...

till next time, xoxo

sesi kuarantin bermula

2009-07-28T20:34:00.000-07:00

ok. im telling u, the session has started today....

one of us has been suspected to have H1N1

they just announced the uninvited news at 1 am...

n it made me forget to spread bedak sejuk all over my face for the first time...

it made me yawn till i could not sleep until 4 in the morning...

and the consequences.......are....

so it forbids us from not going anywhere but here, i mean our hostel...

and it also lets us skip classes until it is cristal clear...

and we can come back in lecture halls until we are told to do so...

sounds scary, eerie, freaky, spooky, n whatever it is...

it has sent shivers down my spine...

it has sent a rush of blood to the head...

so , next time, i will be taking care of myself...

i will be eyeing on whatever i do next, anything that can screw up my health...

but, it really bores me, just to stay at my room...

i already planned to go to the library...

to check out the book exhibition...

that i was supposed to buy some books...

and i was supposed to find some information about my assignments...

aaaaarggghhh what an agony!...

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shame on u...those who were hoping that this session would come into our territory...u annoyed me...n u irritated me with ur giddily scream, screaming for the privilege to skip classes...is it enjoyful enough? is it really blissful? is it a pleasure for having this such dungeon?....

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dah la... x payah nak bergembira sbb bole ponteng kls... doa jelah byk2 agar diri kite di jauhkan dr wabak H1N1.... Amin...

till next time, xoxo

tiba-tiba muncul kembali

2009-07-17T22:17:00.000-07:00

im disturbed.

im disrupted.

and im confused.

kenapa kau datang lagi dalam hidup aku tika aku mahu melupakanmu?

betul-betul buat aku pening kepala, tak ada kerja lain nak buat?

betul-betul buat aku rasa serba salah.

oh God tell me why, why this thing keeps happening, n this is rather slack.

i dont want the past to come n haunt me back. its totally monstrous, a catastrophe, and a definite no-no.

and you give me nothing but an expectation.

tapi nak buat macam mana..

i will handle every situation with a relaxed and instinctive calm.

tapi, deep inside my heart, it tells me that I DONT WANT TO LOSE YOU. ANYMORE.

U R MOST WELCOME TO BE PART OF MY LIFE, again.

but promise u wont bother my study, ok.

sekian.

till next time, xoxo

am finishing my tasks, not gonna update my blog religiously

2009-07-17T21:06:00.000-07:00

salam....

saya tgh buat assignment ni.. maybe lps ni my updates will be less n less. my assignments keep me buzy...

saya nak fokus ni. i wont do a breach of loyalty. saya x nak buat kerja main2. i will follow what is required by my lecturers.

oh ya. tgh sibuk2 buat assignments ni, i just finished reading a novel borrowed from the library. it's called the memory keeper's daughter, written by kim edward. sorry coz didnt get a chance to snap a pic of the novel, in case kalau u want to buy it in stores ke..
cerita ni best, it had the guts to make me cry, sbb ceritanya sedih, but i didnt cry pun sbb benda yg remeh temeh je, so saya simpan je air mata ni. memang feeling habis baca buku ni..it's about a man, who is a doctor, n he's the one who delivers his wife's babies n diorang ni dpt anak kembar. a boy n a girl. the boy comes out first n the girl comes out later. the boy is a healthy baby, while the girl is born with down's syndrome. of course la kan, parents normally x nak anak yg cacat, so he gives away his daughter to his nurse. the novel depicts life in the 60's, so, maybe masa tu x byk sgt treatment utk syndrome ni n maybe he doesnt know what to do with his retarded baby n is quite blur on how to handle that n he hands out the baby to another person , dan masa time ni saya betul2 benci watak doktor ni.. jahat btul bagi anak sendiri kat org lain. he keeps the secret carefully n he tells his wife that the girl is dead.........then after 24 years, the man is dead n the nurse confides the secret to his wife.....time ni memang sedih. then, the family unites, the twin brother, paul, now takes care of his retarded twin sister, phoebe, n the mother is happy to meet up with her estranged daughter...ok. that's it. u can check out the book by urself...

hari tu, we had a task in class. we were requested to make 2 nursery rhymes for children. hahhah saya memang x kreatif nak buat lirik lagu budak2 ni. bantai je buat. ntahla... rasa x best, kalau buat lirik lagu putus cinta ke, cinta ke, angst, u name it memang bole la...tp untuk budak2, hmm i dont have the talent laa. ntahla macam mana ye nti, i hate the apprehension. sbb benda ni mmg kitorg kena master in the future nti.

n i will be home on 15th of august. im gonna have a holiday for one week...

till next time, xoxo

my sunday is boring

2009-07-12T03:15:00.000-07:00

im not so busy, so i can slack off a bit.

till next time, xoxo

secret recipe

2009-07-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

yeah. the wait is over. now i will be munching cakes 24/7 (klu x kedekut sgt nak keluarkan duit sendiri)...

kek apa ni?

kek pisang samudera? sedap tu....

tp this is way more delicious than kek samudera....

SECRET RECIPE IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yummy.......

p/s-oh ye pekan tg malim, tlg bkak satu kedai utk mcd n big apple donuts ye. scret recipe is not enough to cheer up my days here in this small town called tg malim.

till next time, xoxo

with girlfriend

2009-07-12T02:31:00.000-07:00

managed to celebrate amax's bday in mid valley before going back to upsi last week.(sorry for the late entry)...

amax's hp was having some problems n it gave her hard time. so she decided to buy a new one which is like mine...

me-the poser. x tau nak buat pose apa yg best.

two of a kind. budak2 kacamata. amax+amal

yeah!!!!!!!! happy belated bday dear!!!!!!!!1

now i got 2. which one do u prefer most? oh i choose the pink hp over the other one...

till next time, xoxo

what's your saying?

2009-07-11T08:02:00.000-07:00

saya pun x pasti adakah saya btul2 menyokong pengajaran math n sains dalam bm?

saya rasa saya sokong... sbb we should embrace our own language, kan? dalam akta pendidikan pun it has already stated that all subjects must be taught in malay. things will get easier if they are taught in malay.. tengok la ngr maju macam jepun. they dont rely on english, they are weak in english.. tp knp diorg bole maju? sebab they think their language is great n there's no shame to mould their mother tounge language.

tapi.......

part of me doesnt think so. saya sokong pengajaran math n sains dlm bi. their english will get better tau. kan skrg ni all unis in malaysia use english as a medium language? so, its not wrong kalau nak bg pendedahan awal kat bdk2 tu. they need to learn math n science in english so that x da lah ternganga blaja math n science dlm english nti...

macam x da pendirian je saya ni.. saya ni susah nak berpendirian tetap... skjp cakap ni, skjp ckp tu... adoi......

english teachers must do something to instill the english language among students. do some extra work so that students can speak well, write well in english. for example, u can fine students if they speak malay during english class. this will work out. or pick 2-3 days a week to make an english speaking day. this was held during my school days, n the students enjoyed speaking english only though some spoke brokenly. but it was ok laa, at least they had the guts to speak....

till next time, xoxo

hanafi

2009-07-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

thanks for the pic.. credits to ferd..

now i have a new wallpaper in my hp..

till next time, xoxo

kesian shibu!

2009-07-01T10:44:00.000-07:00

this cat has officially become the next shibu in this house.

tapi......

shibu jarang balik rumah. kenapa shibu? shibu merajuk dengan mena ke? stop sulking laa shibu. u r not a kitten anymore, dah jadi kucing tua sekarang kan? im expecting u to be a grown up cat. tak yah la mengada-ngada. im so sick of u la..

tak cukup ke dengan segala ikan-ikan yg mena bagi selama ni, x cukup lg ke? mena ada banyak tin ikan sardin just for u only, i also forbid everyone not to touch them coz they r reserved for u! selalu sangat x ada kat rumah. berfoya2 ngan kucing lain ke?

ohhh baru ingat. that day, i spotted u having this HUGE scar at your ears, that makes it become kurap. i thought u already had a fight with ur girl kan? why did u let her scratch u?! x macho langsung. mana bole jantan kalah dgn betina. u r such a plain loser la. tengok sekarang da tak comel lagi. ada kurap. i dont want to play with u anymore, coz u r gross. its not that i dont want to send u to the doctor, but tau2 je la kan mama tu, she refuses to take u to a clinic coz mama x suka benda remeh temeh. mungkin sebab tu, shibu kecil hati ngan mena, n makes u seldom go home. shibu kecil hati sebab u dont have a friend to play with u anymore, u dont get to listen to me sing u a song called shibu uyumu. i bet u miss the lullaby kan?

shibu, i miss the old u, mena rindu dengan bulu shibu yg lembut, gebu macam karpet tu..(if only kurap wasnt there, n u meant the world to me)

when im away, n u r home, who wants to take care of u?

till next time, xoxo

being overshadowed by someone hurts

2009-06-29T23:52:00.000-07:00

i just watched this movie, a league of their own which i have liked it ever since i was 9. the movie is great n makes me want to watch it over n over again. its about 2 small town women moving to the city to be a professional baseball player. oh i forgot to mention, they are sisters, and they are put in the same team. the big sister, dotty is the greatest player in the team, always gets the limelight, n ppl around her really adore her. unlike her little sister, kit, she's just another average player in the team, who has this big potential to shine just like her big sister, n ppl start comparing both of them, n it just makes her even sicker. luckily, dotty always supports her no matter what but ppl around dont seem to care much about kit until kit misunderstands dotty. in the end, kit is transferred to another team n the both teams which are kit's n dotty's meet in the final game. to their dismay, kit performs well n beats her sister up. finally, kit's team becomes the champion. everyone in the end applauses for kit n everyone starts to adore her after winning the game n kit starts to gets her own crown. well things happen for a reason rite, the transfer lets kit shine in her own way......

after watching the movie, i contemplated for a while, thinking that this was kind of similar of what did happen to me in maahad though i moved to it when my sister tika had already moved out from the school but actually she left something that made the teachers compare us in two things-karangan bahasa melayu n sejarah which are the things that tka scored well. during my study in maahad, i wasnt really good at both subjects. cikgu asri always used to tell me, infront of the class yang membuatkan saya terasa sedikit malu dgn diri saya ''amalina, kakak awak atiqah tu dulu selalu skor karangan, selalu buat ayat2 power, tp saya tengok awak ni biasa je.'' hmmm siapa yg x sakit ati kan bila kena compared mcm tu. pastu sejarah plak, cikgu ezana agak hairan bila saya susah nak skor, asyik dapat c je (alaaa last2 masa spm dpt gak A) pastu nak compare2 org ngan kakak sendiri. tp one thing yg membuatkan saya bangga dgn diri sindiri ialah saya tak lemah sgt dlm add math unlike tika she got 6 in spm n i got 4. bukanlah nak bangga diri, tp sekurang kurang nya ada jugakla something that i was good at. nasihat saya kepada guru2 di luar sana, dont expect others to be someone else. ppl shine in different ways. plz start learning the theory of howard gardner which it tells u that humans have 8-9 multiple intelligence.

pengajaran yg saya dpt dari movie a league of their own, kalau dah berkeluarga, dan punya anak-anak, saya tak nak sekolahkan anak-anak saya di bawah satu sekolah yg sama (if only i had much money n could bear the distance to travel to some blocks). takut nanti cikgu2 akan membanding- bandingkan anak2 saya (memanglah kan, dlm 2 org tu mesti ada yg plg menyerlah dan kurang menyerlah), n usually teachers dont give a single chance to the unfortunate. i wont let this happen, coz being in someone's shadow hurts.

itu sahaja coretan dari hati untuk hari ini..

sekian

till next time, xoxo

ruang hati

2009-06-29T23:30:00.000-07:00

hey sahabat,
salam, selamat pulang,
ke ruang hatiku ini,
ku setia menunggu.

tersentap sewaktu jahiliah,
terciptalah lagu, pengampunan,
lantas ku bertapa,
ampunilah aku tak sempurna,
ku hamba biasa,
siapa kau yang tentukan ku ke syurga?
kita serupa.

aku sanggup merentas seksa hidup, tanpa berteman,
sabar menanti, aku akur,
walau sekalipun sengsaraku pedih sementara.

maaf ku melintas,
seingatnya aku kau sesat,
angkuh, kau meraban,
memang pun kau sibuk, berpesta,
tak sudah-sudah merana,
manalah kau campakkan pendirian?
ego, kau berangan,
engkau berangan.

aku tulus melintas, rahmat hidup,
tanpa menyesal,
dan ruang hatiku merdeka,
kerna ku tahu seksa ini hanya sementara, sahaja.

hey sahabat,
usahlah kau pulang lagi,
ke ruang hatiku ini,
ku takkan menunggu.

p/s-credits to auburn

till next time, xoxo

is my pink dell gonna be safe?

2009-06-26T22:27:00.000-07:00

i was eating durian at the kitchen. suddenly i heard a strange noise coming from upstairs. mcm bunyi brg jatuh je. then i thought,'oh no! what is that? did my laptop fall on the floor?'. alamak, aku tinggalkan aniq sorg2 kat atas tgk thomas kat laptop ak. bad thing was i put the laptop on a chair, sepatutnya ak ltk kat atas lantai nti x dalah jatuh ke, aniq tolak ke kan? so, dgn rase x sdp ati nye smbil tangan aku pegang lagi durian, i went upstairs. alamak!!!!!! laptop aku!!!! jatuh!!!!! ni mesti aniq punye keje ni, tgk thomas smpai x ingat dunia pastu t'tolak laptop ak jatuh atas lantai.

it really makes me worry like hell. x pernah rase risau gila bangang mcm ni. macam mana nasib masa dpn laptopku ini? oh, jgn la rosak!!! gila pathetic!

-emo gila. smpai t'lupa nak basuh pinggan berlambak kat dapur tu-

till next time, xoxo

michael jackson

2009-06-25T23:02:00.000-07:00

i woke up this morning at 9.15 n i still felt sleepy. i didnt want to sleep again, n there was nothing could offer the slightest temptation for me to get out of bed. i decided to take my hp n turned on the radio. i needed my ears to be fed with some songs that could prevent me from sleeping. then, i turned to fly fm. there was a michael jackson's song being played n uhhh what a boring song so i turned to hitz fm n still another song from him popping in the air. i was wondering what the hell they kept playing all these old school songs from mj where nowadays they are so many great songs from new comers like lady gaga, katy perry u name it that could be aired instead of mj's. then suddenly something hit me. i now got the answer. the king of pop has just passed away. they made a small tribute for him. the announcement was made by the dj. i didnt burst into tears coz im not his big fan n i would not let my tears out for someone who i dont dearly admire. but i must admit that i grew up with mj's songs n i did listen to his songs back then when i was a kid. i still remember when i was 6, i was singing 'u r not alone' by mj with my sisters till we kept it recorded so that we could listen to that song over n over again. it was one of my sweetest memories of childhood years that i wont forget. if u have not listened to any of his songs, u r not cool.

im really sure that all his fans rite now are mourning for the death. im really sure that all flowers have been sold out n the fans are putting all the flowers infront oh his house. im really sure that all news on tv are broadcasting his death n all the channels on tv will be making a special documentary of his life from being a jackson 5 member till he became a king of pop. im really sure that all celebrities also are making speech, telling all the reporters how the news saddens the entertainment bizz n one thing for sure is no one could replace him. justin timberlake doesnt dance well like mj neither does cris brown.

till next time, xoxo

aqib+amal+amax

2009-06-25T07:46:00.000-07:00

oh, i was glaring at the old pics in my pink dell n suddenly these pics of my sweetest companions really took my breath away n nearly brought me into tears. they really remind me of our memories we shared through out the years. there are so many pics that we took together. tons. uncountable. but i must admit these pics are my fav coz they represent our earier progress of lasting friendship. still, until now, we remain close eventhough we are miles away from each other.

hey u, naqibah aqeb urai? oooppsss tersalah la naqibah johari. hehehhe u r the craziest girl i've ever met. disebabkan ko, aku pun gila gak. wat apa kat kulai tu? tolong mak? bagus2. jgn lupa aku kat sini ni. anyway, since u r away, rindu gila nak g clubbing ngan ko. oopps clubbing? no no. we dont club kan? saja je nak sebut istilah clubbing tu. dalam istilah aku clubbing tu same je maksud ngan hanging out. tp bkn kat club, kat malls ke, taman ke u name it. ahhahha. the word 'clubbing' is strictly used for us only ok? kalo ko nak 'clubbing' ngan ak. ko ckp je tau ngan aku. kat coco banana ok? bole blahh...

ini asma al husna. panggil amax je. kadang2 terpanggil mak, pastu org fikir yg dia ni mak aku plak. hhaahh. still remember kat bank muamalat kat kl when some guy thought that we were sisters? ahhah kelakar gila. yela dua2 pakai cermin mata n our face look slightly similar kan? dia ni suka belanja org. baik sgt. i still keep the rough sketch of powerpuff girls that u drew for me. thanks for it! ur bday is on 5th july kan? x lama lagi tu. looking forward to celebrate with u before i head off to upsi, next week gak. tp nak celebrate awal sket.

this pic was taken at otk kan? otk stands for ong tai kim, the most available place to shop in gombak rite instead of sogo ke, mid ke. huhuhu look at aqib's lap. she was holding our assignment. time ni lps printing assignment. sempat lg nak amik gmbr. gambar plg bes yg pernah aku ada.

sekian terima kasih.

till next time, xoxo

terhalang dek kerana hijab?

2009-06-23T10:36:00.000-07:00

seriously i think this book is seriously fun n it really catched my eyes from the second i started reading till the second i finished reading it. its about a girl who has a strength to wear a hijab while others think that its too weird to do so. well what im gonna say rite now is it really does happen in everywhere where ppl still think that wearing a hijab is too corny. i have this one friend who wanted to apply for a job in a boutique, sadly, she wasnt accepted just because she wore a hijab at that time n the owner thought wearing a hijab wasnt glamorous n looked like a makcik selling kuih kat tepi jln n she said it was so out of fashion n she said it was a fashion crime n bla bla bla. of course la my friend was devastated, me either felt that too. terhalang dek kerana hijab? salah ke pakai tudung? x nampak cantik? does it really matter to the owner? nasihat saya kpd owner butik tu, ubahla pemikiran anda. lmbt laun anda juga yg akan menyarung tudung di kepala sendiri.

till next time, xoxo

gila annoying

2009-06-23T00:44:00.000-07:00

hey u,
go away la,
get a life,
dont mess with me,
y u r still there?
u know i always win n u r just a plain loser kan?
cant get enough of this ke?
tak serik2 lagi?
My God, u r so funny la,
org lain sibuk nak ke depan, ko pulak sibuk nak ke belakang,
macam tak da wawasan,
sampai bila2 pun u wont succeed trust me.

u suck, celaka.

till next time, xoxo

i miss...

2009-06-21T08:29:00.000-07:00

so the gig didnt turn out as i wished it could be, coz i didnt bump into estranged n i didnt get to watch them perform, coz i had to go back early in a sense of fearing of my parents that might be freaking out if they found out their daughter was in a rock show!

the gig goers were kind of shit. they did some moshpit n body surfing till i was scared. i could not stand this anymore n i thought being in this gig was really a bad idea. anyway, it was kind of sinful for me, kan? so, i made up my mind get out from the gig to perform prayer, since it was already 3pm n i hadnt prayed n takutkan Allah The Almighty sgt2.

after i prayed, i went back with tka, tp still estranged blum perform lg, n the other band was still on the stage n i thought x pelah, lain kali bole jumpe estranged. rase x rugi ape2 pun kan, drpd x solat, baik miss estranged perform.

lps ni klu nak jumpe diorg, u better make sure that it wont clash ur prayer schedule ye cik mena.

n im gonna miss all these craps...

im gonna miss din n his friendliness,
im gonna miss andy n his gorgeous n goodlooking personality,
im gonna miss hanafi n his shyness,
im gonna miss rich n his singing sensation,

waaaa ble nak jumpe diorg lagi ni...????

till next time, xoxo

father's day

2009-06-16T08:59:00.000-07:00

i never celebrated father's day before,
i think it was too mean not to do that but trust me i didnt mean to,
deep inside my heart i loved him dearly,
just because maybe at that time i was shy enough to show some affection that a father needed most from his daughter.

i still remember when i was a kid, he bought me a barbie doll that all girls were so desperate to get one,
but i was the lucky one to have that,
and i thought he was the coolest dad in the world.

and still, he is the coolest one,
thanks for being the coolest dad for me for 21 years,
sorry for having so much dramas through out these years,
but i guess it really makes our strings attach.

father's day is just around the corner,
i only have 5 days to churn my mind up to think something that can celebrate his big day.

p/s- uja, if u r reading this, gv me any idea for this, sure u r expert in this n im not.

till then, xoxo

cancel ur vacation please...

2009-06-15T07:14:00.000-07:00

she says she doesnt want to cancel her flight with ayah to beijing coz she already paid off the tickets n it lets me feel worried about them backpacking to overseas while the H1N1 virus has been attacking worldwide.

till then, xoxo

x da nafsu makan durian

2009-06-15T05:57:00.000-07:00

i thought i could stuff my mouth with loads of durians, but i failed to have the guts to finish eating them though i had this passion to eat durians burst inside me n i found out this passion lied to me.

as a conclusion, saya tak ada nafsu untuk makan durian walaupun durian berlambak kat dapur tu.

till then, xoxo

durian

2009-06-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

i feel bored staying at house before i go back to upsi on 4th july. boredom really smothers me till i feel like crap. so i decided to follow mama n ayah to go to paklang's house at melaka, picking some durians at his house. so this kind of really excites me since i havent went there since raya last year, i guess.

muaz is going back to school after having a school break. hahaah padan muka budak kecik.. g tdo awal..boo....

p/s- me n mama are kind of pissed off after makcik sarah is getting on our last nerve when she has kind of delayed my driving lesson that should have been finished earlier before im off to uni. im still wondering whether i can finish up all the lessons n take the jpj test- another undesired behaviour of malay ppl, i think. -malay ppl always like to procrastinate, do u? wahai org melayu sekalian....

need to have a nice n warm sleep before rocking on our journey tomorrow.

till then, xoxo.

kantoi!

2009-06-13T11:08:00.000-07:00

i dedicate this lyrics to all cheaters, liars, n players. feel it!

semalam i call you, you tak answer,
you kata you keluar pergi dinner,
you kata you keluar dengan kawan you,
but when i called tommy he said it wasnt true.

so i drove my car pergi damansara,
tommy kata maybe you tengok bola,
tapi bila i sampai you, you tak ada
lagilah i jadi gila.

so i called and called sampai you answer,
you kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar,
my phone was on silent, i was at the gym,
tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain.

sudahlah sayang, i dont believe you,
i've always known your words were never true,
why am i with you, i pun tak tahu,
no wonder lah my friends pun tak suka you.

so i guess, that's the end of our story,
akhir kata she accepted his apology,
tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too,
with her ex-boyfriend's bestfriend-tommy.

comel kan?

till then, xoxo

selamat bertunang kawanku!

2009-06-13T07:53:00.000-07:00

mardiah sayang, sori x dpt pergi ur engagement day, hope that i will get the chance to attend ur wedding.

congratz fren, im so hepi for u..

till next time, xoxo

sushi yg sangat sedap!

2009-06-12T08:55:00.001-07:00

hmmm. im turning into a sushi addict rite now. i dont have any idea of why i do eat it regularly. FYI, i used to hate eating sushi just because i wasnt into eating some weird stuff n i thought sushi was one of it. for me, it looked like crap, seriously. but when i tried to eat a lil bite of it, it turned me on... waaaa sedapnya.. btul la org kate x kenal maka x cinta... hehhehe. this pack of sushi was bought by ima at alamanda. she bought it at carrefour coz it is not pricey laa compared to sushi king yg jauh lbh mahal dari tu. tunggu laaa ble ada duit banyak sket, so i'll be indulging myself to eat at sushi king. hhuuhhu. actually this pic was taken after i already had my dinner which i was kind of full eating nasi berlaukkan ikan keli masak lemak dan ayam masak merah tp i could not resist to eat sushi afterwards. tamak btul! x pelah, it doesnt really scare me though, coz it's hard for me to gain some kilos eventhough i eat a lot like crap. hahha excuse me, it's not my intention to brag ok? it's just sooo reality. reality of being me-Amalina. my friends perceive me as a girl who likes to eat, eat n eat. even my allowance is majorly spent into buying food. ahhaha another true story of me that u cant afford to miss, eh..

till then, xoxo

kids also know how to park their cars

2009-06-09T10:09:00.000-07:00

hahhah. comel kan? my nephews pun park kereta diorang kt tmpt ltk kereta. hmm, imam Al-Ghazali once said that adults should be a good role model to children coz children do what they see from adults. so i guess this pic really means it. the drivers in the family have implemented this saying to the kids. of course la they know how to park their cars well, so the kids follow their behaviour by parking their tiny cars in the garage. maybe diorang takut ngan atuk kot sbb kalau ltk kereta merata2 nti kena marah. ahhaaha.

till then, xoxo

model of the house

2009-06-09T01:31:00.000-07:00

amani: mama mena....

me : yes honey,

amani: what do u think about this pic of mine?

me : oh, u looked great in that gown. hahaha, where did u learn posing in that way?

amani: i dont even know, it just came out. hmm do u think i have what it takes to be a model?

me : hahahah i dont know. but i guess u can start modelling in this house first, before ur mom will consider to put u in any modelling agency. that means, u should start taking nice pics in this house first. heheh lets see if atuk is supportive enough about that.

amani: alaaaa.....

p/s- it's the gedikest side of amani. trust me. hahhha

till then, xoxo

my life as a 1 yr old lil precious human being

2009-06-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

hi there. it's me amani. rite now im replacing my aunt, mama mena to write in this blog. mama mena already gave me a green light to be part of this blog n i want to share with u about my life n how's gonna be like to turn 1 yr old this year.

my family just made a birthday party for me n it was a blast n i felt grateful to have my own party eventhough i know there are lots of kids out there who are not lucky enough as i am to have a bday celebration at such young age. i want to thank my parents who are very kind n supportive through out this year n thanks for being the greatest parents on earth. thanks mama coz u had me wear this such beautiful gown that every lil girl dreams of it n also the big cake n it was so yummy. i want to thank my grandpa, grandma, my brother, my uncles, my aunts, my maid, n my cousins for always accepting me to be part of this family. oh ya, i forgot to mention, my aunt, mama ipa n family didnt get a chance to be here with us coz they are away at penang. mama ipa, if u r reading this, do know that u r always in my heart n i really love to play with faruq again. ur absence was such a miss. never mind, promise me to visit me later, ok.

this is my big brother, aniq, who loves me dearly like any other big brother does to his lil sis. it's very nice to live with u n play with u. promise me to behave well in the house coz u sometimes give them a severe headache with ur misbehaviour (oh, i am just being honest, am i?). hehheh. but hey, thanks for giving me morning kisses when i wake up every morning n thanks for patting my shoulder when i cry.

this is my cousin, abg aan who also loves me n i cant wait to grow up coz i want to play with u n cycle with u. oh, u r such a good big brother who always grips my hands when im down, just see this pic. that is all so evident in this pic.

hmm what do i love about being a 1 yr old girl? hmmm let me guess, i love being photographed by my parents n aunts where i can do many poses that i like, it will feel great if i can see n evaluate all the photos of mine whether im hot enough to be a model but im still young to do that interpretation. but it's ok la, my mama n aunts always keep my photos safely n make these pics as a collection so that, when i grow up, i can look up for that.

oh ya, this is my favourite. i really love this photo. it makes me kind of cute by posing in that way. oh mama, plz send me to any modelling agency where i can be a model. emm, also, im dying to be a cover girl for ma n pa magazine. eh? am i being too much to ask for? hahhahahah

p/s- owh blogging is fun, i wish i could have my own blog. =P

till then, xoxo

amani.

pesawat

2009-06-09T00:14:00.000-07:00

he's gonna be a pilot one day, insya Allah

till then, xoxo

hanging out with anis

2009-06-08T23:35:00.001-07:00

i had a priviledge to meet my best friend anis who has been with me for 2 years and a half in iic n currently is studying at msu. so we met last friday at mid n i think this was sort of our sweet reunion coz we havent met for about 6 months la, so we really appreciated this 9 hours meeting n did normal stuff like best friends would do like watching movie, gossiping, window shopping, n the list goes on. oh ya i forgot to mention, we watched syurga cinta together in cinema n the movie was ok la, eventhough sepi (we watched it last time together) is way more better than syurga cinta, but the movie really made me spend the quality time with this such good friend of mine n it seemed like i wanted to hang out with her all day long.. hahhaahhah

this is me, looking kind of cute in this shirt. hahhahha. we really wanted to take pics in private so we managed to find a nice toilet that has a room for rest, getting make up done n stuff n it's very nice n cosy place laa. hmm i was still working out on how to make the camera love me...

this is her, looking pretty in this outfit. heheee

hhaahhah anis, u r so funny la, u always take pics with ur one leg comes infront n the other one is hiding inside.

hmm as the conclusion, i really love this girl. she really represents my happiness n joy. i hope to c her soon n we're gonna watch a new movie together which is orphan...

anis-if u r reading this, plz leave a comment. i really appreciate ur kindness.

till then, xoxo

where's the oreo cheese cake?

2009-06-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

last friday, i went to mid with my bff, n wanted to buy this cake which is oreo cheese cake for my sis tka, since i already promised her to buy that one for her upcoming bday. so, me n my friend managed to go to secret recipe n we were having our tea time there, i had a slice of walnut brownies while my friend had a slice of choc fudge. yummy!!! this had to be one of my craving desserts since i havent eaten scrt recipe for 5 months. while we were eating, i ordered the waiter to pack the other 2 slices of cakes which were oreo cheese n choc cheese for me to take away n the waiter obliged. then, i went back home, n i presented these cakes to my sis.

to my dismay, i found out another cake instead of oreo cheese had been put there. OMG. scret recipe had made a biggest mistake to its customer! i felt like i wanted to kill the waiter named AMIN. thank god he's kinda cute, so i would not mind not wanting to sue him. hahhaahah but the gud thing was, choc cheese was there, n wasnt replaced by another cake. so, the cakes were just eaten by my sisters n my nephews. i felt sorry for tka, for not having oreo cheese. tka shared her choc cheese with ima since tka has this propensity which is she has a difficulty in eating desserts, n she seldomly finishes them n she prefers to eat in a pair. n my nephews ate the banana choc cake n it just left me eating my big apple donuts. yummy!!!

today is your bday!!!!. hepi 24th bday sis. may Allah bless u in whatever u do. thanks for the good things that u have done to me. love ya.

p/s- i feel soooo irritated coz, i havent found any slice of almond coffee cake, yet. actually walnut brownies really bores me.

till then, xoxo.

decode

2009-06-05T10:57:00.000-07:00

the truth is hiding in your eyes,
and you are hanging it on your tongue,
just boiling in my blood,
do you think that i can't see.

what kind of man that you are,
if you are a man at all,
well i'll figure this one out,
on my own.

how do we get here,
when i used to know you so well.

till then, xoxo

it wasnt their fault, hello.

2009-06-03T00:37:00.000-07:00

Jawablah!: Bengang dakwaan 'gila mikrofon'
Oleh Farihad Shalla Mahmudfarihad@bharian.com.my

Andy Estranged bangkit beri penjelasan ekoran gosip sewaktu konsert Rhythm Of Unity MARAH sungguh kumpulan Estranged apabila mendapat tahu ada gosip di akhbar yang mengatakan kumpulan mereka syok sendiri sewaktu menjayakan konsert Rhythm Of Unity yang berlangsung di kawasan meletak kereta di Stadium Nasional Bukit Jalil, 23 Mei lalu. Berdasarkan apa yang disiarkan menerusi gosip Normah Bechok dalam ruangan Dengarnya...., Estranged dikatakan ‘gila mikrofon’ apabila menyanyikan lima lagu walaupun sudah diberi amaran oleh penganjur, eBlitz Communications Sdn. Bhd yang mahukan mereka menyanyikan dua buah lagu saja.

Kesannya, kumpulan yang membuat persembahan Estranged iaitu Slank hanya menyanyikan dua buah lagu saja dan itu mengundang kemarahan penonton yang begitu setia menantikan persembahan kumpulan dari Indonesia itu sejak awal petang lagi. Terperangkap dalam situasi apatah lagi ini kali pertama menganjurkan sebuah konsert, eBlitz meletakkan sepenuh kesalahan itu kepada Estranged dan akibatnya, nama kumpulan yang popular dengan lagu terbaru mereka, Yang Pernah dan Aurora ini tercemar sekali gus memberikan gambaran buruk kepada band indie yang lain. Merasakan diri mereka teraniaya, pemain dram kumpulan ini, Andy bangkit memberikan penjelasan kepada Hip serta menerangkan apa sebenarnya yang berlaku pada malam konsert itu berlangsung.

Hip: Mungkin Andy boleh beri penjelasan yang mengatakan kumpulan Estranged buat persembahan syok sendiri sewaktu konsert Rhythm Of Unity berlangsung?

Andy: Sebenarnya kami sendiri terkejut apabila mendapat tahu mengenai gosip itu kerana setahu kami pihak penganjur tidak memberi sebarang amaran. Sebaliknya mereka bersetuju apabila kami katakan mahu menyanyikan lima buah lagu. Dan andai benar mereka kecewa atau terkilan dengan Estranged, mengapa ketika kami mahu pulang, mereka melayani kami seperti biasa, bersalam dan tidak membangkitkan sebarang rasa tidak puas hati masa itu. Jadi apabila tiba-tiba muncul kenyataan di akhbar yang mengatakan mereka kecewa apabila kami menyanyi melebihi waktu yang ditetapkan sehingga menyebabkan kumpulan Slank terpaksa menyanyi dua buah lagu saja, itu membuatkan kami bengang kerana ia jelas mencemarkan nama kami di mata khalayak.

Hip: Takkan pihak Estranged tidak dimaklumkan langsung mengenai syarat itu?

Andy: Apa yang saya tahu mereka tidak mengeluarkan arahan apa-apa. Bukan saja kami tetapi pengurus kami juga tidak dimaklumkan apa-apa. Malah kami sendiri tidak dimaklumkan bahawa mereka hanya mendapat permit dari pihak DBKL hanyalah setakat jam 12.30 tengah malam. Kalau benar mereka ada beritahu, takkan kami nak buat kepala sendiri?

Hip: Tak ada usaha untuk bersemuka dengan mereka serta meminta penjelasan atas apa yang terjadi?

Andy: Sebaik saja gosip itu tersiar di akhbar, pengurus kami ada berjumpa dengan wakil penganjur dan mereka ada berjanji untuk memohon maaf secara terbuka tapi saya tak nampak pun mereka berbuat demikian. Sebenarnya sejak awal lagi kami sudah sangsi dengan penganjuran konsert ini. Bayangkan belum pernah kami membuat konsert tanpa sebarang sesi sound check. Tapi untuk konsert ini, kami tidak berkesempatan untuk sound check disebabkan beberapa masalah. Ada ke patut mereka suruh kami buat sound check jam 3.30 pagi pada hari berlangsungnya konsert? Kami tak buat pun. Kemudian mereka menyuruh kami bersedia pada jam 12 tengah hari untuk sound check namun kami terkejut apabila mendapati pentas yang disediakan sedang dibuka. Saya difahamkan khabarnya pihak pembekal marah apabila pihak penganjur tidak menjelaskan bayaran dan disebabkan itulah mereka membuka kembali pentas yang dipasang. Lebih teruk lagi apabila pentas hanya baru dipasang ketika jam 5 petang di mana waktu itu sepatutnya konsert sudah bermula. Di sini menunjukkan yang penganjur sebenarnya tidak profesional dalam menjalankan kerja mereka.

Hip: Mungkin mereka masih baru dalam bidang ini menyebabkan konsert anjuran mereka menjadi kucar kacir?

Andy: Saya faham keadaan ini dan disebabkan itulah walaupun pada peringkat awal saya lihat banyak masalah yang berlaku namun atas dasar ingin memberi sokongan terhadap usaha mereka menganjurkan konsert untuk band indie, jadi kami teruskan juga membuat persembahan. Tapi lain pula jadinya apabila kami yang dipersalahkan atas apa yang berlaku. Saya juga ingin menyentuh soal bayaran. Berdasarkan perjanjian awal, penganjur akan menjelaskan baki bayaran selepas konsert berakhir. Namun sehingga kini tiada khabar yang diterima. Setakat ini mereka hanya menjelaskan bayaran sebanyak 30 peratus. Kami masih menunggu dan jika mereka gagal melunaskan bayaran yang dijanjikan, kami tidak teragak-agak untuk mengambil tindakan.

Hip: Bagaimana pula dengan reaksi kumpulan Slank sendiri?

Andy: Pihak pengurusan kami ada bertemu dengan pengurusan mereka dan nampaknya mereka tidak menyalahkan kami dalam hal ini. Mereka memahami situasi yang berlaku. Cuma kami risau bagaimana penerimaan media di negara Indonesia. Kami bimbang jika mereka menulis bukan-bukan mengenai kami hanya berdasarkan kenyataan yang dikeluarkan pihak penganjur.

Hip: Serik untuk bekerjasama dengan penganjur seperti ini pada masa akan datang?

Andy: Bukan serik tetapi mungkin selepas ini kami kena berhati-hati supaya pisang tidak berbuah dua kali. Kami tidak mahu disebabkan sikap tidak profesional pihak penganjur, kami menjadi mangsa. Kami tidak mahu disebabkan mereka, nama kumpulan Indie lain turut tercemar. Pastinya selepas ini ada penganjur yang berat untuk mengundang band Indie membuat persembahan kerana bimbang masalah serupa akan berlaku. Apapun dengan penjelasan ini, kami harap semua pihak mendapat gambaran yang benar terhadap apa yang berlaku

whatever it is, estranged is not guilty, i can feel it even though i wasnt there at the concert. the people who accused estranged are nothing but a psychopath, son of a bitch, n they r trying to put estranged down.

go estranged! i'll always support u guys, no matter what.

p/s-i wish i could be there too, watching ur energetic performance is such pleasure to the eyes.

till then, xoxo.

the misuse of streamyx

2009-06-02T09:11:00.000-07:00

well, it seems like the streamyx thingy has taken its toll on me. im such a misuser. im misusing this privilage. u know, i never felt this good before. before this we used a dial up connection n it wasnt really good la coz it was a bit lembap. having a fast internet connection really makes me feel better-i can blog as much as i can, i can chat with my friends on ym, n the worst thing which is my guilty pleasure is i can watch my favourite videos on you tube. hahahha, i cant afford to miss it. last nite i watched my fav filipino drama, pangako sayo till 4 in the morning n it was totally a bliss! but im worried that this thing is killing me from not doing something which is vital than surfing the internet 24/7. well here are the consequences of my bad habit (which i enjoy doing it!).

1) i love watching videos-estranged, disney cartoons, dramas, songs n the list goes on. so i end up logging on to youtube. it's a must for me if im surfing the internet. watching these things really make my eyes wide open n i wont feel sleepy n it seems like i sleep only 2-3 hours at night. it's indeed not a good thing for me coz after praying subuh prayer, i'll continue my sleep untill 12 am, n i'll feel guilty afterwards coz i let my mum cook for lunch alone whereas im thoughtful enough to help her cook too. sorry mama, ur daughter is trying to wake up early in order to help u finish preparing lunch! but how? i dont know, sometimes i hate myself for not having the courage to do something that can make my mum be proud of me, like cooking.

2) i've always wanted to indulge myself in some spiritual things like qiam, reading quran, mathurat n stuff n i didnt have much time to do that kind of thing back in upsi where i was smothered by study n exam n i was thinking that i wanted to do that during holiday. n now i barely do that n im kind of lazy to please Allah by doing these recommended things n it sounds like im disgracing mayself. Ya Allah, plz forgive me.

3) i just bought a good book which is 'does my head look big in this?' n proudly say that i havent finished reading it n it's very embarrassing because i bought this book about 3 weeks ago n i should have finished reading this book a day after i bought it. huh! i've always been keen to books n reading a new book only takes me 1-2 days to read it (im not saying im a fast n good reader, i always make sure that my dictionary is always with me when im reading). it feels like i want to slap myself.

4) there's a writing competion held by nst paper n i really want to join it. until now, i havent made any progression to start writing the essay because im enjoying myself surfing the internet! i hope that i can finish writing it since the due date is on 26th june. can i make this possible? i dont know...

5) i have a passion which is writing short stories n i want to start writing my own story because the idea is there n is waiting to be put on a paper n is viciously procrastinated by me having too much fun on surfing the internet.

ok. it ends here. i hope i wont screw things up again n i want to fix myself if only i dont pamper myself a lot by sticking infront of this innocent pink dell. thanks for letting me get my frustration out. gudbye.

till then, xoxo

lutsinar

2009-05-29T11:22:00.000-07:00

hati beri siksa...

ku tak berdaya lagi.

till then, xoxo

mimpi ular

2009-05-29T09:13:00.000-07:00

so, rite now, i want to share with you about something that happenned to me last nite. well, i had a dream. n it was quite scary n made me scream when i woke up after dreaming. i was dreaming about a snake. a black snake. hmm i think u can guess what is the interpretation of that dream. there's a folklore saying that if u have that kind of dream, that means someone is really interested in you n wants to propose u. hahah funny. so, i dont know what im feeling rite now. who's the luckiest guy who wants to marry me? i already broke up with someone. hm, just dont take it seriously la, n dont believe. just assume this as a sort of amusement. i dont want to marry rite now, long way to go. im 21 n still studying. im gonna finish studying in 2013 (that means im 25 then).

till then, xoxo

situasi

2009-05-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

i already threw u out...

hope u dont mind...

i really am sorry...

it seems like we dont have a strong connection...

n i refuse to give it a chance...

to get to know u deeper...

coz it's meaningless...

thanks for the memories...

thanks for the time wasted on u.

ruang hati

2009-05-26T22:42:00.001-07:00

hey sahabat,

usahlah kau pulang lagi,

ke ruang hatiku ini,

ku takkan menunggu.

till then, xoxo

the duo beradik

2009-05-24T11:20:00.000-07:00

meet aniq n amani, adik beradik yang selalu menghangatkan seisi rumah dengan telatah mereka n they always amuse us. these pictures were taken when they were bored not doing anything which was fun n interesting. at that time, their mum was bz surfing the internet n wasnt able to entertain them (ima, plz dont get me wrong, i didnt mean to say that u r not a great mum, u r actually a great mum). yes, ima, i understand that u need some time to have some rest n be out from any stress that can make u meroyan n u did a good job by doing a thing that u enjoyed most. anak2 ima pun amat memahami keadaan ibunya yg inginkan keseronokan seperti org bujang (like mama mena), so mereka mencari alternatif lain utk berdikari by doing things on their own. at these pics, they were playing together which it was hard for me to understand what game they played but nvr mind, they managed not to rely on their mum some time. n ima, u should be proud of ur kids. they understand u most than any other people. Alhamdulillah.

p/s-we're gonna throw a bday party for amani this sunday, Insya Allah. it's kind of sweet 16 bday party that u watch on mtv.

till then, xoxo

gudbye emmett, hidup butterfingers

2009-05-24T09:44:00.000-07:00

this is butterfingers, one of my fav local bands in malaysia. their songs are awesome. actually, to be honest, i wasnt really familiar with their songs n the band also coz before this i was so into international acts n didnt really listen to some malaysian bands. but, this band came to the picture. in 2004, when i was in form 4, i started to listen to their hit which was the chemistry between us, n it made me wonder which band sang this song, it seemed like it was sung by some international band coz that song was so great, kind of nirvana n i nvr thought that this actually came from our local band. i also didnt know that this song actually came out before2004, n being ignorant i was made me find out which band sang this song until i already got the answer in 2008 which was last year, n i already knew that the band was butterfingers. what a miss. i should have listened to them earlier. so pathetic! besides the chemistry, i also love stolen, n all their english hits. i must admit that the most fav track is the chemistry, it really makes my head bang. the best rock song ever i tell u.

last year also, they came out with their new album. a malay album n this was said to be their last album but actually it wasnt. all the songs r great. i love 1000 thn mahu hidup, terus terang, bebas, mati hidup kmbali n so on n so forth. this album actually made my eyes wide open that they r very talented musicians n they have been in this industry for 15 years. it really upsets me that they didnt win the best rock album n the best rock song at the AIM award, n they lost to hujan which i think they deserved to win both categories. im not saying that i hate hujan, hujan is great, but butterfingers is way more better than hujan. aaaah, nvr mind, winning an award is nothing, but producing good songs is way more important.

this is emmett, the vocalist of butterfingers. i cant believe that he actually used to study in mckk n became the top student there, n yet has a great passion in music besides having a good academic background, n how cool is that. he really can sing, n play the guitar extremely well n he has what it takes to be a rockstar. then, he already flew to canada, couple of days ago, coz he's working there. it's not that he left butterfingers, he just left malaysia only. butterfingers is not over yet, n i still hope that they will be together again, producing more great songs. i'll always support butterfingers.

till then, xoxo

my 1st victory

2009-05-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

yes... i already passed the theory exam. i got 48/50. Alhamdulillah. that means i can learn how to drive after this. so the driving lesson's gonna be on thursday. i feel like i cant hardly wait to drive.

last night i could not sleep. i slept at 5am. but the sleepless night is paid off.

p/s-i ate mcd twice today, hope that i wont put some kilos...

till then, xoxo

when ida wasnt around...

2009-05-22T10:20:00.000-07:00

hhuuhuh. sepanjang ari rase penat sgt? y? coz our maid ida wasnt around. she went to c her husband n her family n will be back here on sunday. things will be easier when she's around at home. yes. it's a sincere confession. tp ble dier blk kjp umah husband dier, that means i have to take care of ima's kids which are aniq n amani when ima goes to work. td, agak memenatkan bg saya n mama coz we took care of them since they r the youngest in our house that need special care n attention. amani..omg i'm telling u she has become more ganas n very2 active. yeah that means she's growing up n sometimes it's funny to hear her say some few words n she has become very2 demanding. hahhah. so of course the kids when searching for ida. me n mama came for the rescue. so, here are some activities that we made to cheer them up..

1) we took them outside the house, aniq main basikal n amani naek kereta sorong, kereta sorong that had been used by muaz since he was 1 yr old. so kami main2 dan bergurau senda bersama-sama sambil mama nyanyi lagu utk cucu-cucu kesayangannya di atas buai.

2) aniq loves cats n so do i. when we were playing outside, we spotted a cat, n i jumped happily that finally i found a cat. saya amat teruja utk m'bela kucing sepanjang cuti ini, so tried panggil kucing tu, but it didnt succeed. that cat was sooo sombong n it made aniq go back cycling again.

3) after playing outside the house, we went inside n mama fed amani n i coaxed aniq by letting him watch thomas n friends at my laptop. aniq looked very2 keen to watch n sing the song. he looked very cute i tell u. then, suddenly muaz n aan interrupted n wanted to watch ultraman instead thomas n friends. so aniq just obliged hearing the command made by his elder cousins. so i let them watch it.(with my guidance ok. i wont let them watch for hours. it can corrupt children's mind).

4) aniq n amani played together with aan n muaz. the 3 boys fought. aniq still could not fit with muaz n aan. they fought n they cried n they fought again n they cried again. sgt penat melayan kerenah diorg n it made mama forget to take a nap for a while.

then, around 6 pm angah n family were off to blk kmpung n me n mama were counting every minute, hoping that abg ain n ima would be home early since mama wanted to go to a sermon with ayah at surau. so, after a few minutes, the arrival of black vios made us happy, happy to know that the taking care session was finally over. aniq n amani sgt gembira dgn kepulangan org tua mereka dari tmpt krja, n mama went to her room n got ready to go to surau n i went off to my room, opened my laptop n got to listen to my fav song at myspace which is 'ruang hati kembali sebentar lagi' which is sung by auburn. hahah i love that song. uhuhu nak download tak reti, so terpaksa bukak page myspace auburn utk dgr lagu tu. (hmmm nasib baik da psg streamyx, so bole dgr lagu2 best). hehehehe

p/s-my test is due 2mrw. am i ready? i dont even know.

till then, xoxo

andy

2009-05-21T10:21:00.000-07:00

owh andy.. u r getting even hotter nowadays. i still cant believe that there's a rumour saying that u r dating with marsha AF. u better leave that woman.. she's not worth it.. hahaahah

cant wait to meet u at ur gig next month.. for the 4th time...

p/s-im beginning to hate linkin park rite now. their new song sucks.

till then, xoxo

aniq yg entah paper

2009-05-19T10:53:00.000-07:00

hmm, as u can c in these pictures, the lil boy is my nephew. my 5th nephew n now i have 8 nepwhews n 1 niece. and 1 baby is on the way which is ipa's. owh, i forgot to tell his name. well he's name is aniq, he's 2 yrs of age n he's very2 chubby n he makes everone feel geram with him n everyone wants to pinch his cheeks. aniq likes to sing n the funny part is he's the only one who sings religiously, compared with my other nephews. i think he has the musical talent n how cute is that. but i hope he's not gonna be an artist or whatsoever in the future coz we r expecting him to be a good man with a noble job. im not saying that im underestimating musicians in this world (though i also love music), it's because as u can c nowadays entertainment bizz has more negative sides than the positive sides. owh forget it. i dont want to talk about that coz its not worth it...rite? entertainment thing is very tiring....

aniq lives with us n he has his cousins to play with which r muaz 5, aan n nawfal, 3 yrs old. aniq is the baby of the bunch. aniq tries so hard to fit in with them each day, sometimes he is accepted to play with them sometimes he's not. he also finds it difficult to mingle with nawfal n they always fight. oh its normal for children n it's a character building, sooner or later they will learn how important it is to keep the relationship stronger n i want them to be close when they grow up. i dont want them to be like me. when i was very young, i was really close with my cousins like mira n shafiq, we always played, n did normal stuff like any kid would do, but it didnt last when we grew up. we barely spoke, just smiled to each other. maybe we were shy because we were not kids anymore. but thank God, me n mira still can contact each other on friendster eventhough we r seldom to do so. she never fails to give me testimonials n i nvr fail to do so to her. she's studying medicine in egypt rite now so i wish her all the best in whatever she does...

so the moral of the story is.... i dont know. hahahha. it has many things to be taken seriously. i know u can figure it out.

p/s-im struggling sooo damn hard to study driving lesson. n im not ready yet to take the exam. lols...

till then, xoxo

driving lesson

2009-05-18T03:05:00.000-07:00

ok. im learning to drive rite now n trying to get a license that i should have taken that after spm 3 years ago, hmm so outdated kan saya ni. org lain da pandai drive n even one of my friends hit a man after he got a license n sadly the man died. kesian kan? rasanya kwn saya tu maybe trauma nak drive. ok. actually, frankly to say that im not interested to drive. y? ok im giving u the reasons of y i am so not into driving..

1) actually i dont have the guts to drive coz im scared, psychotic, psychofreak. if i drive, i might hit ppl just like my friend did n maybe i would be put in jail.

2) saya seorg clumsy, senang gabra n menggelabah if im doing something new n hard. im not really confident enough to drive. its so pathetic!

3) hmmm rasenya i dont have to drive coz im hiring a driver one day. hahha byk ke duit nak hire driver cik mena oi?!

4) i hate challenges n driving is very, indeed, really challenging. camping kat hutan pun x suka, inikan pula benda yg susah mcm bawak kereta ni.

so i already gave u the 4 reasons of y i hate to drive, but i should get through of what im doing rite now. just keep doing it, n never turn back. rasenya driving isnt that bad like what i thought before. i already attended the theory class n it made me badly want to drive now. tp before that i have to sit an exam. the laws of the road exam so gmbr kat atas tu gmbr buku revision n exercises that i have to finish studying n completing all the questions. 500 questions. so cik mena, tlg study ye. tlg la study coz u have paid so much money to take this license. i hope that i can pass. Amin.

p/s- actually takut giler bangang nak mampus amik exam tu wei....

till then, xoxo

kasut baru

2009-05-17T09:52:00.000-07:00

ahahahaaa. this is my new pair of shoes that i just bought during my hang out with aini at mid valley. cool isnt it? i know it's drop dead gorgeous n i think girls like me deserve to have that. being a nerd i am made me want to buy that one for my walking to classes at upsi next semester after seeing my friends wearing high heels in campus whereas i was still stuck in my flat shoes thinking that i was quite ashamed to wear any heels in class n how i envied my friends for having the guts to wear heels. so pathetic! so this is kind of revenge n i want to look fabulous wearing that in class. hahhaa (trust me it wasnt my intention to brag). ok so i just want to tell u what i actually looked up for during the hang out. i actually wanted to buy a dress or a top since i havent been wearing any cute dress in a long time for 5 months (i felt it was a bad idea to wear that one in upsi though i had brought my dresses during the registration). it is because we as future teachers are thoughtful enough to wear any appropriate clothes like baju kurung n stuff n how its gonna be like if u r wearing that one while u r teaching in class. u r totally not a good role model to students. hahahha so way back to my story at mid valley, i was searching for a cute dress in all stores like padini, mng, pdi, bum, diesel, nichi n finally aini n i reached to the last store which was elle. n thank God it was still on sale n many outfits were up to 50% less from the actual price i thought this was great. FREAKING GREAT. n suddenly my eyes were captured by a cute pink dress n i thought i wanted it badly coz it made me kind of cute n lovely if i wore it. so, i grabbed n headed to a changing room n OMG. it was stunning n aini approved that it was indeed cute. n suddenly my thought hit me that i looked kind of fat when wearing that. hmmm so i didnt buy it thinking that i am short, n it would be great wearing that if i were tall enough. hahhaha so that day, i only bought the shoes n a book to remedy my mood. hheeh its ok. i have plenty of times to find cute dresses after my sis tika promised me that she will treat me for shopping after getting her first salary. hmmm thanks sis. u deserve to have all the credits in the world.

p/s-already checked up estranged gigs n they will be in kl for 2 shows n i cant really rmmbr the venues that they will be playing, hopefully i can go. YES!!!

till then, xoxo

big apple donut

2009-05-16T09:29:00.001-07:00

last friday, i went hanging out with aini at mid valley. since ive been craving to eat yummy desserts (yela kat tg malim tu mana ada big apple ke, scrt recipe ke n it wont have one pun, trust me), we headed to big apple donuts cafe n manged to buy some donuts. oh ya, i was eating mocha lisa donut in that picture, n it was sooo yummy, delicious (way more better that dunkin donut i tell u)... u better grab one, it really makes ur mouth water....tp kat gmbr tu my face didnt really look like i enjoyed eating that, but actually i was thrilled eating it n it was very enthusiastic. yela cover line....mase makan tuh, mulut comot giler dgn krim mocha tu, so i would not want to destroy my pic with the comot look, coz it was hideous (wei jatuh maruah aku)..

hmm i did a little shopping too but later i will post about it coz i havent taken a pic of my new pair of shoes n u will love to c it...(nak show off kasut baru boleh? heheehhe)

till then, xoxo

jika ku seorang robot

2009-05-16T08:40:00.000-07:00

jika ku seorang robot,
nombor-nombor darahku,
jasadku import eksport,
besi logam dagingku,
sinar matahari solar,
nyawaku tenaga elektrik,
meneliti lebuhraya,
mengawasi pasaraya,
tak perlu ada komplot,
kawan-kawan semua robot.....

ooohhh i love this song, but sadly cant really remember the lyrics clearly, so i just stated what i remember most. it is sung by monolog, i think its an indie band. if u r so into underground, indie or local music scence, probably u might know this song. the music is fresh, n has some robotic melody. the title is very attractive n lets u know what it feels like to be a robot, but i would never wish to be a robot, coz it's stiff, numb, n never has the chance to do desirable things. what a miss isnt it? sometimes a robot is set to be like a slave which it serves or entertains people to do things like house chores n stuff. maybe there's a sole good thing of being a robot which is it will never deal with any discrimination n will never hurt others because a robot is made not to do cruel things.

but whatever it is, im grateful to be a human because there are lots of things, missions, goals and ambitions to be accomplished, for me to make a living, a better living n leads me to live happily in this world. people also can live at ease if they dont discriminate, they dont do evil stuff besause it's gross.

''if everyone cared, nobody died.
if everyone loved, nobody cried''

till then, xoxo

p/s-i cant find the song to be put here, do check out the song at xfresh.fm where it gives u 100 percent malaysian songs especially indie n underground music.

welcome!

2009-05-09T21:24:00.000-07:00

hello, at last i already have my own blog. im gonna write more n more about things that have crossed my mind. let the words do the story!

happy reading!