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woman ate woman. where was her sympathy though? why was she so mean? where was her heart? was this some kind of revenge of what she had gone through n did no justice to the underprivileged?




so pathetic

im hollow

like bella says in new moon, 'there's a hole that has been punched in my chest'.

i kinda feel the same way too.

i feel breathless.

my vision seems blur with tears embroidered my eyes.

my whole body aches.

i cant think, my head is numb.

i cant eat, my mouth is too remote to accept food.


-i dont know what im saying right now, i hate failing, n i hate the test.

bff

in a changing room. we were trying to fit ourselves in all the stuff that were about to buy later. sambil try baju2 baru, we took pics dan agak lame gak menghabiskan sesi fotografi. n i was pretty sure that people out there, lining up n waiting for us were annoyed by this. ala. lantak hang la nak pikiq apa pon, aslkan kite enjoy kan anem....heehheh...

dining time. lps shopping we needed to fill up our tummy with yummy meals from mcd. btw, thanks anem for treating me..in this pic, sy telah menyarung kemeja baru yg dibeli n made it as a jacket. yeah. kind of. talk about enthusiasm ppl..

ini dia girlfriend sy, inda hanim yg bkl jd arkitek soon... wei nti ko design rumah baru ak, k. my wish is your command tau!

candid!

so long people, time ni nak blk n i was hoping that we were not gonna be disturbed again by org gila yg suke ckp sorg2 kat komuter.. kesian anem x pasal2 layan org gila tu...hahaahha..

ok. anem, w/pun ak x smpt nak peluk cium ko mase ko nak kuar dari komuter tu, coz it was flooded by pppl coming in n going out, ak ttp bole cium ko kat gambar ni kan...oopssss, hehhe, dont get me wrong....im not @#$%&*!....stop thinking fishy here.....

Al Fatihah...

Al-Fatihah to Ustaz Arman, may he rest in Peace...


i will never forget the first day i started learning with him till the last day it ended..

thanks so much ustaz...

i really appreciate of what you did to me...

you will be remembered throughout my life...

just keep fighting back ustaz, we all love you

now, all my doas are going to ustaz arman, the one who taught me arabic in maahad. he has a stroke n in a critical condition-that was what my mom said to me this morning. im sad coz he did something noble to me, taught me tirelessly n put a lot of hard work to make me understand arabic eventhough i wasnt too good at it, n suddenly he gets sick in such young age. mama pun sedih, maybe da anggap ustaz mcm adiknya sendiri n mama sayang kat ustaz jugak sbb ustaz ajar bagus kat sekolah dan sebagai pengetua masa tu, of course la mama was proud of him.


ustaz, stay strong n get better soon. everyone loves you.


Ya Allah sembuhkanlah penyakit guru ku ini...

two is better than one

i miss you...
badly, seriously.....


you know what, you should go listen to 'two is better than one' coz it depicts my feelings and thoughts....


but come to think of it, it's so stupid, listening to that 24/7 where i know it doesnt benifit me at all coz its thoughtful enough that you are too far away from me....


i dont know whether i can get to see you soon....


hope that i can live longer and so can you....


take care, will see you then...


xoxo

people named robert

well, there are 2 people named ROBERT that i am currently in love with.. and i want nothing but them....seriously they really turn me ON.


this is ROBERT GREGORY BOURDON n is well known as the drummer of lp and i have been into him since i was 13. he is all the reason of why i LOVE men with beard. ahahhaha. but actually not all men are good with it, and rob is the only one who looks ok with it and i cant agree more.

and this is the hottest vampire on earth named ROBERT THOMAS PATTINSON and fans address him as just robert pattinson. and as you all know (if u dont, ur ignorance isnt bliss) he plays edward cullen in twilight n new moon. oh unfortunately i havent got a chance to watch the movies. n the worse part is the twilight dvd that ipa gave me the other day didnt work out n i could not watch it. n rite now im on a verge of buying that cd, n im gonna watch new moon in cinema soon. i only fantasize edward by reading the twilight n new moon books ( ipa, if u r reading this please hand me the other two books ASAP). i wish i could be bella, the girl that edward likes so much n i really fucking love how edward treats bella. n i love to be his partner in biology class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously, the books have become my bibles.

i think people named robert are destined to be handsome, dark, tall......as the list goes on.

xoxo

lust

did you ever do something that you knew it was wrong but you felt good at it?


and it is called nafsu. sesungguhnya nafsu itu adalah syaitan.




xoxo

emo

in 2000, when i was 12, i was so into britney. all her songs were kept in my mind. one song that i loved singing at that time was born to make you happy. that time, i didnt really know what the entire lyrics was all about, i just knew that someone was born to make people around him happy, and i never found out what it actually really meant in a deeper view.


now i know. the song is dedicated to all people. lovers, parents, siblings you name it. and i have my own interpretation and conscience about that song. i really see it as a mother-daughter song. about the relationship. and it has sentimental values. but one thing that makes me think deeper is that was i really born to make my mother happy? has she been happy through out these 21 years? i know i have caused her lots of troubles and i am yet a troublesome. sometimes i think i am such a burden and i dont grow up according to her plan. now i really hate the word happy, thinking that i wont find happiness though i keep on searching perfection that might lead to happiness. and i let myself down again.


even if i say it will be alright, but actually it wont.
still i hear me say i want to end my life.
now and again i try to stay strong and alive.
and i know its never too late to make my mom happy.



hope that you are patient enough to see the difference.



xoxo

good days at home

What's up peeps....

just came back from penang visiting ipa and her family. we stayed there for about 3 days. ipa has made a decision to quit working for a while to focus on her 2 kids. and i am thoughtful enough that after this my pocket money will become less and less. ehhehe. well its alright. i dont care much. her children take more priority over her brat little sisiter, kan? hahahah. so for the 'kind of' last contribution ( i hope not) that ipa made was buying me a nike handbag that i love so much. thanks ipa. love ya..

nur kasih has just ended and i think it gives an impact to people especially those who are not a crybaby, like my sister, tika. i never saw her cry and this drama really made her cry. hahahha. speaking of nur kasih, i should have watched it from the very first episode. i never thought that this was actually good and all i can do right now is tuning to tv3 at 7.30 pm every mon- fri to catch all the episodes that ive missed.

staying at home makes me crave for fooooooooooooddddd. i eat a lot and keep rummaging food in my fridge. i think i have gained some weight and fyi, i cannot wear ima's levis jeans coz my peha doesnt fit with it... aarggh malunya...i wonder why ima's getting skinnier ek lately? hhahaah its karma. i used to tease her 'gemuk' when i was little and now iam the one who has that biggggggg thigh.

just made brownies and everyone loved it and am proud to say that it was my first attempt..



ok. gonna finish up reading twilight. toodles....


xoxo

rob

well, rob has changed his look and i find it disgusting. ooopsss sorry, i really hate his new appearance. just look at his new hair cut which is long and quite messy. seriously it sucks.

rob, you upset me. i just dont get it. what were you thinking of getting your hair done and ended up being like this? stop destroying yourself.

yeah, i prefer this most. i love his previous hair cut which was short and spiky and cute also.

tilll then

xoxo

i was stupid

if i could turn back time,
mahu saja saya pergi ke minggu lepas,
why?
sebab saya ada 7 hari untuk baca buku falsafah,
but i had taken for granted,
mentang2 ada banyak hari,
so i said to myself that 'oh, i have so freaking enough time, so why bother to study earlier?'
jadi saya banyak habiskan masa dengan menghadap facebook,
like almost everyday i did this rather than facing my own intellectual book,
lagi satu masa tu asyik fikir nak balik je,
so i was quite disrupted by this childish anticipation,
jadi agak terganggu untuk belajar,
yeah im emotional right know,
falsafah agak gila susah,
n it really baffled me while answering that damn hard questions,
jadi saya nak luahkan semua ni kat blog,
some say that emo people are good at writing,
am really dreading of what kind of result that im gonna get,
aaaahhhh forget it, but hopefully it'll turn out well.



till then,
xoxo

laut makes me calmer

laut, somewhere in manjung perak. the pic was taken on sept 4th, the day that my group made an observation on a boy who has cerebral palsy. after that, we stayed in ida's house for a while. while waiting for breaking the fast, we were off to this such beautiful (bole tahan laa) place. seriously, it made my day easier. i wish i could stay there longer, where no one could disturb me, where i could make a sweet escape n run away from any misery business,

gosh, tak pernah plak before this pakai baju kurung. tepi laut plak tu. hahah it was because i observed that boy at a gov school so kena pakai yg sopan sikit laa..(berlatarbelakangkan kwn2 saya yg tgh kutip ape ntah..)

ok. that's it. later i'll upload some stories here.

till next time, xoxo

of many things...

salam...
da lama x update blog..
feels like its been ages since i last wrote any...
hepi eid mubarak ppl...
da 3 hari beraya tp x rasa raya pun...
angah was off to johor, li was off to singapore n uja was off to her in laws'...
sume nye beraya kat in laws'...
gilir2 pulak kan... last year was at bangi n this year raya kat umah in laws...
yela kan marriage needs mutual respect?
heheh maybe sbb we didnt go back to our kampung coz ipa has just delivered her baby so it might be evil for us to leave her n the baby alone while we were enjoying the raya celebration in kg...
so x pela..x kisah pun actually..
being in bangi je pun best gak...
n i keep rummaging all the balangs of kuih raya in the kitchen coz i cant really get enough of stuffing all these sweet things into my mouth...
n thanks for the duit raya i got from my family...
nak g shopping? am not sure....
need to save up a lil bit...
just bought a nice baju that can be worn in class...
that is worth 99 bucks...
hahhaah i kidded u already...
mmg la harga die RM99 but it has less up to 50%.. so u do the math k...
it is from nicole btw...
n i just bought a new novel called 'my sister's keeper' for me to kill the time reading it eventhough i havent done my essay on cerebral palsy... hehheh
talking about wasting time huh??
but actually i havent read it coz i let ipa read it first...
yela kan kalau dok breastfeed baby je boring so she needs something to ignite her day so she does the 2 things simultaneously...
hum ape lg nak membebel...
i miss my cat seriously...
n i miss andy...



till next time, xoxo

another backstabber

betul la kan org ckp..
kwn boleh jd lwn...
n i got my own story to tell n the saying really suits with this girl that happened to be my good friend...
n now she turns out to be the biggest enemy ever
tp for god sake i dont want to say her name nor type it down ...
i guess she doesnt know that i have dumped her coz im not a person who likes to come clean or terus terang to someone that has taken a go on me, who has backstabbed me, who has betrayed me, or any manner that can describe how truly bitchy she is....
sape yg mkn cili terasa la pedasnye kan?


btw no wonderla my friends pun tak suke ngan this person...


till next time, xoxo

u know u love me

seriously, cuti seminggu ni hasnt been awesome sgt pun. entahla staying at kab is preferred. my heart longs to return to kab where i can meet up my friends n finish up the assignments. memang la kat umah pun bole siapkan assignment kan? tp i choose kab over my own house....

but there's a wisdom behind it....

i got to watch the season 2 of gossip girl. baru je tgk. i was ignorant about it being screened on 8tv. sungguh malang nasib ku where i have missed out the previous episodes. i started to watch the latest episode today n it made me look like a dumb ass, mulut ternganga x sudah sbb x tau what's happening now between blair, serena, nate, chuck, dan, n jenny. all i could do was pretending to be absorbed in the story. x syok betul tgk gossip girl td. it feels like i want to buy the dvds. im addicted to it...x kira nak beli gak...

till next time, xoxo

sesi kuarantin bermula

ok. im telling u, the session has started today....



one of us has been suspected to have H1N1



they just announced the uninvited news at 1 am...



n it made me forget to spread bedak sejuk all over my face for the first time...



it made me yawn till i could not sleep until 4 in the morning...







and the consequences.......are....







so it forbids us from not going anywhere but here, i mean our hostel...



and it also lets us skip classes until it is cristal clear...



and we can come back in lecture halls until we are told to do so...



sounds scary, eerie, freaky, spooky, n whatever it is...



it has sent shivers down my spine...



it has sent a rush of blood to the head...



so , next time, i will be taking care of myself...



i will be eyeing on whatever i do next, anything that can screw up my health...



but, it really bores me, just to stay at my room...



i already planned to go to the library...



to check out the book exhibition...



that i was supposed to buy some books...



and i was supposed to find some information about my assignments...



aaaaarggghhh what an agony!...



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shame on u...those who were hoping that this session would come into our territory...u annoyed me...n u irritated me with ur giddily scream, screaming for the privilege to skip classes...is it enjoyful enough? is it really blissful? is it a pleasure for having this such dungeon?....

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dah la... x payah nak bergembira sbb bole ponteng kls... doa jelah byk2 agar diri kite di jauhkan dr wabak H1N1.... Amin...


till next time, xoxo

tiba-tiba muncul kembali

im disturbed.

im disrupted.

and im confused.

kenapa kau datang lagi dalam hidup aku tika aku mahu melupakanmu?

betul-betul buat aku pening kepala, tak ada kerja lain nak buat?

betul-betul buat aku rasa serba salah.

oh God tell me why, why this thing keeps happening, n this is rather slack.

i dont want the past to come n haunt me back. its totally monstrous, a catastrophe, and a definite no-no.

and you give me nothing but an expectation.

tapi nak buat macam mana..

i will handle every situation with a relaxed and instinctive calm.

tapi, deep inside my heart, it tells me that I DONT WANT TO LOSE YOU. ANYMORE.

U R MOST WELCOME TO BE PART OF MY LIFE, again.

but promise u wont bother my study, ok.

sekian.

till next time, xoxo

am finishing my tasks, not gonna update my blog religiously

salam....

saya tgh buat assignment ni.. maybe lps ni my updates will be less n less. my assignments keep me buzy...

saya nak fokus ni. i wont do a breach of loyalty. saya x nak buat kerja main2. i will follow what is required by my lecturers.

oh ya. tgh sibuk2 buat assignments ni, i just finished reading a novel borrowed from the library. it's called the memory keeper's daughter, written by kim edward. sorry coz didnt get a chance to snap a pic of the novel, in case kalau u want to buy it in stores ke..
cerita ni best, it had the guts to make me cry, sbb ceritanya sedih, but i didnt cry pun sbb benda yg remeh temeh je, so saya simpan je air mata ni. memang feeling habis baca buku ni..it's about a man, who is a doctor, n he's the one who delivers his wife's babies n diorang ni dpt anak kembar. a boy n a girl. the boy comes out first n the girl comes out later. the boy is a healthy baby, while the girl is born with down's syndrome. of course la kan, parents normally x nak anak yg cacat, so he gives away his daughter to his nurse. the novel depicts life in the 60's, so, maybe masa tu x byk sgt treatment utk syndrome ni n maybe he doesnt know what to do with his retarded baby n is quite blur on how to handle that n he hands out the baby to another person , dan masa time ni saya betul2 benci watak doktor ni.. jahat btul bagi anak sendiri kat org lain. he keeps the secret carefully n he tells his wife that the girl is dead.........then after 24 years, the man is dead n the nurse confides the secret to his wife.....time ni memang sedih. then, the family unites, the twin brother, paul, now takes care of his retarded twin sister, phoebe, n the mother is happy to meet up with her estranged daughter...ok. that's it. u can check out the book by urself...

hari tu, we had a task in class. we were requested to make 2 nursery rhymes for children. hahhah saya memang x kreatif nak buat lirik lagu budak2 ni. bantai je buat. ntahla... rasa x best, kalau buat lirik lagu putus cinta ke, cinta ke, angst, u name it memang bole la...tp untuk budak2, hmm i dont have the talent laa. ntahla macam mana ye nti, i hate the apprehension. sbb benda ni mmg kitorg kena master in the future nti.

n i will be home on 15th of august. im gonna have a holiday for one week...

till next time, xoxo

my sunday is boring

im not so busy, so i can slack off a bit.

till next time, xoxo

secret recipe

yeah. the wait is over. now i will be munching cakes 24/7 (klu x kedekut sgt nak keluarkan duit sendiri)...

kek apa ni?


kek pisang samudera? sedap tu....

tp this is way more delicious than kek samudera....


SECRET RECIPE IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


yummy.......

p/s-oh ye pekan tg malim, tlg bkak satu kedai utk mcd n big apple donuts ye. scret recipe is not enough to cheer up my days here in this small town called tg malim.


till next time, xoxo

with girlfriend

managed to celebrate amax's bday in mid valley before going back to upsi last week.(sorry for the late entry)...

amax's hp was having some problems n it gave her hard time. so she decided to buy a new one which is like mine...

me-the poser. x tau nak buat pose apa yg best.

two of a kind. budak2 kacamata. amax+amal

yeah!!!!!!!! happy belated bday dear!!!!!!!!1

now i got 2. which one do u prefer most? oh i choose the pink hp over the other one...

till next time, xoxo

what's your saying?

saya pun x pasti adakah saya btul2 menyokong pengajaran math n sains dalam bm?

saya rasa saya sokong... sbb we should embrace our own language, kan? dalam akta pendidikan pun it has already stated that all subjects must be taught in malay. things will get easier if they are taught in malay.. tengok la ngr maju macam jepun. they dont rely on english, they are weak in english.. tp knp diorg bole maju? sebab they think their language is great n there's no shame to mould their mother tounge language.


tapi.......


part of me doesnt think so. saya sokong pengajaran math n sains dlm bi. their english will get better tau. kan skrg ni all unis in malaysia use english as a medium language? so, its not wrong kalau nak bg pendedahan awal kat bdk2 tu. they need to learn math n science in english so that x da lah ternganga blaja math n science dlm english nti...


macam x da pendirian je saya ni.. saya ni susah nak berpendirian tetap... skjp cakap ni, skjp ckp tu... adoi......

english teachers must do something to instill the english language among students. do some extra work so that students can speak well, write well in english. for example, u can fine students if they speak malay during english class. this will work out. or pick 2-3 days a week to make an english speaking day. this was held during my school days, n the students enjoyed speaking english only though some spoke brokenly. but it was ok laa, at least they had the guts to speak....

till next time, xoxo

hanafi

thanks for the pic.. credits to ferd..




now i have a new wallpaper in my hp..



till next time, xoxo

kesian shibu!

this cat has officially become the next shibu in this house.

tapi......

shibu jarang balik rumah. kenapa shibu? shibu merajuk dengan mena ke? stop sulking laa shibu. u r not a kitten anymore, dah jadi kucing tua sekarang kan? im expecting u to be a grown up cat. tak yah la mengada-ngada. im so sick of u la..

tak cukup ke dengan segala ikan-ikan yg mena bagi selama ni, x cukup lg ke? mena ada banyak tin ikan sardin just for u only, i also forbid everyone not to touch them coz they r reserved for u! selalu sangat x ada kat rumah. berfoya2 ngan kucing lain ke?

ohhh baru ingat. that day, i spotted u having this HUGE scar at your ears, that makes it become kurap. i thought u already had a fight with ur girl kan? why did u let her scratch u?! x macho langsung. mana bole jantan kalah dgn betina. u r such a plain loser la. tengok sekarang da tak comel lagi. ada kurap. i dont want to play with u anymore, coz u r gross. its not that i dont want to send u to the doctor, but tau2 je la kan mama tu, she refuses to take u to a clinic coz mama x suka benda remeh temeh. mungkin sebab tu, shibu kecil hati ngan mena, n makes u seldom go home. shibu kecil hati sebab u dont have a friend to play with u anymore, u dont get to listen to me sing u a song called shibu uyumu. i bet u miss the lullaby kan?

shibu, i miss the old u, mena rindu dengan bulu shibu yg lembut, gebu macam karpet tu..(if only kurap wasnt there, n u meant the world to me)

when im away, n u r home, who wants to take care of u?

till next time, xoxo

being overshadowed by someone hurts

i just watched this movie, a league of their own which i have liked it ever since i was 9. the movie is great n makes me want to watch it over n over again. its about 2 small town women moving to the city to be a professional baseball player. oh i forgot to mention, they are sisters, and they are put in the same team. the big sister, dotty is the greatest player in the team, always gets the limelight, n ppl around her really adore her. unlike her little sister, kit, she's just another average player in the team, who has this big potential to shine just like her big sister, n ppl start comparing both of them, n it just makes her even sicker. luckily, dotty always supports her no matter what but ppl around dont seem to care much about kit until kit misunderstands dotty. in the end, kit is transferred to another team n the both teams which are kit's n dotty's meet in the final game. to their dismay, kit performs well n beats her sister up. finally, kit's team becomes the champion. everyone in the end applauses for kit n everyone starts to adore her after winning the game n kit starts to gets her own crown. well things happen for a reason rite, the transfer lets kit shine in her own way......

after watching the movie, i contemplated for a while, thinking that this was kind of similar of what did happen to me in maahad though i moved to it when my sister tika had already moved out from the school but actually she left something that made the teachers compare us in two things-karangan bahasa melayu n sejarah which are the things that tka scored well. during my study in maahad, i wasnt really good at both subjects. cikgu asri always used to tell me, infront of the class yang membuatkan saya terasa sedikit malu dgn diri saya ''amalina, kakak awak atiqah tu dulu selalu skor karangan, selalu buat ayat2 power, tp saya tengok awak ni biasa je.'' hmmm siapa yg x sakit ati kan bila kena compared mcm tu. pastu sejarah plak, cikgu ezana agak hairan bila saya susah nak skor, asyik dapat c je (alaaa last2 masa spm dpt gak A) pastu nak compare2 org ngan kakak sendiri. tp one thing yg membuatkan saya bangga dgn diri sindiri ialah saya tak lemah sgt dlm add math unlike tika she got 6 in spm n i got 4. bukanlah nak bangga diri, tp sekurang kurang nya ada jugakla something that i was good at. nasihat saya kepada guru2 di luar sana, dont expect others to be someone else. ppl shine in different ways. plz start learning the theory of howard gardner which it tells u that humans have 8-9 multiple intelligence.

pengajaran yg saya dpt dari movie a league of their own, kalau dah berkeluarga, dan punya anak-anak, saya tak nak sekolahkan anak-anak saya di bawah satu sekolah yg sama (if only i had much money n could bear the distance to travel to some blocks). takut nanti cikgu2 akan membanding- bandingkan anak2 saya (memanglah kan, dlm 2 org tu mesti ada yg plg menyerlah dan kurang menyerlah), n usually teachers dont give a single chance to the unfortunate. i wont let this happen, coz being in someone's shadow hurts.

itu sahaja coretan dari hati untuk hari ini..

sekian

till next time, xoxo

ruang hati

hey sahabat,
salam, selamat pulang,
ke ruang hatiku ini,
ku setia menunggu.

tersentap sewaktu jahiliah,
terciptalah lagu, pengampunan,
lantas ku bertapa,
ampunilah aku tak sempurna,
ku hamba biasa,
siapa kau yang tentukan ku ke syurga?
kita serupa.

aku sanggup merentas seksa hidup, tanpa berteman,
sabar menanti, aku akur,
walau sekalipun sengsaraku pedih sementara.

maaf ku melintas,
seingatnya aku kau sesat,
angkuh, kau meraban,
memang pun kau sibuk, berpesta,
tak sudah-sudah merana,
manalah kau campakkan pendirian?
ego, kau berangan,
engkau berangan.

aku tulus melintas, rahmat hidup,
tanpa menyesal,
dan ruang hatiku merdeka,
kerna ku tahu seksa ini hanya sementara, sahaja.

hey sahabat,
usahlah kau pulang lagi,
ke ruang hatiku ini,
ku takkan menunggu.






p/s-credits to auburn



till next time, xoxo

is my pink dell gonna be safe?

i was eating durian at the kitchen. suddenly i heard a strange noise coming from upstairs. mcm bunyi brg jatuh je. then i thought,'oh no! what is that? did my laptop fall on the floor?'. alamak, aku tinggalkan aniq sorg2 kat atas tgk thomas kat laptop ak. bad thing was i put the laptop on a chair, sepatutnya ak ltk kat atas lantai nti x dalah jatuh ke, aniq tolak ke kan? so, dgn rase x sdp ati nye smbil tangan aku pegang lagi durian, i went upstairs. alamak!!!!!! laptop aku!!!! jatuh!!!!! ni mesti aniq punye keje ni, tgk thomas smpai x ingat dunia pastu t'tolak laptop ak jatuh atas lantai.



it really makes me worry like hell. x pernah rase risau gila bangang mcm ni. macam mana nasib masa dpn laptopku ini? oh, jgn la rosak!!! gila pathetic!



-emo gila. smpai t'lupa nak basuh pinggan berlambak kat dapur tu-



till next time, xoxo

michael jackson

i woke up this morning at 9.15 n i still felt sleepy. i didnt want to sleep again, n there was nothing could offer the slightest temptation for me to get out of bed. i decided to take my hp n turned on the radio. i needed my ears to be fed with some songs that could prevent me from sleeping. then, i turned to fly fm. there was a michael jackson's song being played n uhhh what a boring song so i turned to hitz fm n still another song from him popping in the air. i was wondering what the hell they kept playing all these old school songs from mj where nowadays they are so many great songs from new comers like lady gaga, katy perry u name it that could be aired instead of mj's. then suddenly something hit me. i now got the answer. the king of pop has just passed away. they made a small tribute for him. the announcement was made by the dj. i didnt burst into tears coz im not his big fan n i would not let my tears out for someone who i dont dearly admire. but i must admit that i grew up with mj's songs n i did listen to his songs back then when i was a kid. i still remember when i was 6, i was singing 'u r not alone' by mj with my sisters till we kept it recorded so that we could listen to that song over n over again. it was one of my sweetest memories of childhood years that i wont forget. if u have not listened to any of his songs, u r not cool.


im really sure that all his fans rite now are mourning for the death. im really sure that all flowers have been sold out n the fans are putting all the flowers infront oh his house. im really sure that all news on tv are broadcasting his death n all the channels on tv will be making a special documentary of his life from being a jackson 5 member till he became a king of pop. im really sure that all celebrities also are making speech, telling all the reporters how the news saddens the entertainment bizz n one thing for sure is no one could replace him. justin timberlake doesnt dance well like mj neither does cris brown.


till next time, xoxo

aqib+amal+amax

oh, i was glaring at the old pics in my pink dell n suddenly these pics of my sweetest companions really took my breath away n nearly brought me into tears. they really remind me of our memories we shared through out the years. there are so many pics that we took together. tons. uncountable. but i must admit these pics are my fav coz they represent our earier progress of lasting friendship. still, until now, we remain close eventhough we are miles away from each other.



hey u, naqibah aqeb urai? oooppsss tersalah la naqibah johari. hehehhe u r the craziest girl i've ever met. disebabkan ko, aku pun gila gak. wat apa kat kulai tu? tolong mak? bagus2. jgn lupa aku kat sini ni. anyway, since u r away, rindu gila nak g clubbing ngan ko. oopps clubbing? no no. we dont club kan? saja je nak sebut istilah clubbing tu. dalam istilah aku clubbing tu same je maksud ngan hanging out. tp bkn kat club, kat malls ke, taman ke u name it. ahhahha. the word 'clubbing' is strictly used for us only ok? kalo ko nak 'clubbing' ngan ak. ko ckp je tau ngan aku. kat coco banana ok? bole blahh...

ini asma al husna. panggil amax je. kadang2 terpanggil mak, pastu org fikir yg dia ni mak aku plak. hhaahh. still remember kat bank muamalat kat kl when some guy thought that we were sisters? ahhah kelakar gila. yela dua2 pakai cermin mata n our face look slightly similar kan? dia ni suka belanja org. baik sgt. i still keep the rough sketch of powerpuff girls that u drew for me. thanks for it! ur bday is on 5th july kan? x lama lagi tu. looking forward to celebrate with u before i head off to upsi, next week gak. tp nak celebrate awal sket.

this pic was taken at otk kan? otk stands for ong tai kim, the most available place to shop in gombak rite instead of sogo ke, mid ke. huhuhu look at aqib's lap. she was holding our assignment. time ni lps printing assignment. sempat lg nak amik gmbr. gambar plg bes yg pernah aku ada.

sekian terima kasih.

till next time, xoxo

terhalang dek kerana hijab?

seriously i think this book is seriously fun n it really catched my eyes from the second i started reading till the second i finished reading it. its about a girl who has a strength to wear a hijab while others think that its too weird to do so. well what im gonna say rite now is it really does happen in everywhere where ppl still think that wearing a hijab is too corny. i have this one friend who wanted to apply for a job in a boutique, sadly, she wasnt accepted just because she wore a hijab at that time n the owner thought wearing a hijab wasnt glamorous n looked like a makcik selling kuih kat tepi jln n she said it was so out of fashion n she said it was a fashion crime n bla bla bla. of course la my friend was devastated, me either felt that too. terhalang dek kerana hijab? salah ke pakai tudung? x nampak cantik? does it really matter to the owner? nasihat saya kpd owner butik tu, ubahla pemikiran anda. lmbt laun anda juga yg akan menyarung tudung di kepala sendiri.

till next time, xoxo

gila annoying

hey u,
go away la,
get a life,
dont mess with me,
y u r still there?
u know i always win n u r just a plain loser kan?
cant get enough of this ke?
tak serik2 lagi?
My God, u r so funny la,
org lain sibuk nak ke depan, ko pulak sibuk nak ke belakang,
macam tak da wawasan,
sampai bila2 pun u wont succeed trust me.





u suck, celaka.


till next time, xoxo

i miss...

so the gig didnt turn out as i wished it could be, coz i didnt bump into estranged n i didnt get to watch them perform, coz i had to go back early in a sense of fearing of my parents that might be freaking out if they found out their daughter was in a rock show!


the gig goers were kind of shit. they did some moshpit n body surfing till i was scared. i could not stand this anymore n i thought being in this gig was really a bad idea. anyway, it was kind of sinful for me, kan? so, i made up my mind get out from the gig to perform prayer, since it was already 3pm n i hadnt prayed n takutkan Allah The Almighty sgt2.

after i prayed, i went back with tka, tp still estranged blum perform lg, n the other band was still on the stage n i thought x pelah, lain kali bole jumpe estranged. rase x rugi ape2 pun kan, drpd x solat, baik miss estranged perform.

lps ni klu nak jumpe diorg, u better make sure that it wont clash ur prayer schedule ye cik mena.


n im gonna miss all these craps...

im gonna miss din n his friendliness,
im gonna miss andy n his gorgeous n goodlooking personality,
im gonna miss hanafi n his shyness,
im gonna miss rich n his singing sensation,


waaaa ble nak jumpe diorg lagi ni...????


till next time, xoxo

father's day

i never celebrated father's day before,
i think it was too mean not to do that but trust me i didnt mean to,
deep inside my heart i loved him dearly,
just because maybe at that time i was shy enough to show some affection that a father needed most from his daughter.

i still remember when i was a kid, he bought me a barbie doll that all girls were so desperate to get one,
but i was the lucky one to have that,
and i thought he was the coolest dad in the world.

and still, he is the coolest one,
thanks for being the coolest dad for me for 21 years,
sorry for having so much dramas through out these years,
but i guess it really makes our strings attach.

father's day is just around the corner,
i only have 5 days to churn my mind up to think something that can celebrate his big day.


p/s- uja, if u r reading this, gv me any idea for this, sure u r expert in this n im not.




till then, xoxo

cancel ur vacation please...

she says she doesnt want to cancel her flight with ayah to beijing coz she already paid off the tickets n it lets me feel worried about them backpacking to overseas while the H1N1 virus has been attacking worldwide.





till then, xoxo

x da nafsu makan durian

i thought i could stuff my mouth with loads of durians, but i failed to have the guts to finish eating them though i had this passion to eat durians burst inside me n i found out this passion lied to me.


as a conclusion, saya tak ada nafsu untuk makan durian walaupun durian berlambak kat dapur tu.



till then, xoxo

durian

i feel bored staying at house before i go back to upsi on 4th july. boredom really smothers me till i feel like crap. so i decided to follow mama n ayah to go to paklang's house at melaka, picking some durians at his house. so this kind of really excites me since i havent went there since raya last year, i guess.


muaz is going back to school after having a school break. hahaah padan muka budak kecik.. g tdo awal..boo....


p/s- me n mama are kind of pissed off after makcik sarah is getting on our last nerve when she has kind of delayed my driving lesson that should have been finished earlier before im off to uni. im still wondering whether i can finish up all the lessons n take the jpj test- another undesired behaviour of malay ppl, i think. -malay ppl always like to procrastinate, do u? wahai org melayu sekalian....


need to have a nice n warm sleep before rocking on our journey tomorrow.


till then, xoxo.

kantoi!

i dedicate this lyrics to all cheaters, liars, n players. feel it!



semalam i call you, you tak answer,
you kata you keluar pergi dinner,
you kata you keluar dengan kawan you,
but when i called tommy he said it wasnt true.

so i drove my car pergi damansara,
tommy kata maybe you tengok bola,
tapi bila i sampai you, you tak ada
lagilah i jadi gila.

so i called and called sampai you answer,
you kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar,
my phone was on silent, i was at the gym,
tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain.

sudahlah sayang, i dont believe you,
i've always known your words were never true,
why am i with you, i pun tak tahu,
no wonder lah my friends pun tak suka you.

so i guess, that's the end of our story,
akhir kata she accepted his apology,
tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too,
with her ex-boyfriend's bestfriend-tommy.





comel kan?


till then, xoxo

selamat bertunang kawanku!

mardiah sayang, sori x dpt pergi ur engagement day, hope that i will get the chance to attend ur wedding.

congratz fren, im so hepi for u..

till next time, xoxo

sushi yg sangat sedap!

hmmm. im turning into a sushi addict rite now. i dont have any idea of why i do eat it regularly. FYI, i used to hate eating sushi just because i wasnt into eating some weird stuff n i thought sushi was one of it. for me, it looked like crap, seriously. but when i tried to eat a lil bite of it, it turned me on... waaaa sedapnya.. btul la org kate x kenal maka x cinta... hehhehe. this pack of sushi was bought by ima at alamanda. she bought it at carrefour coz it is not pricey laa compared to sushi king yg jauh lbh mahal dari tu. tunggu laaa ble ada duit banyak sket, so i'll be indulging myself to eat at sushi king. hhuuhhu. actually this pic was taken after i already had my dinner which i was kind of full eating nasi berlaukkan ikan keli masak lemak dan ayam masak merah tp i could not resist to eat sushi afterwards. tamak btul! x pelah, it doesnt really scare me though, coz it's hard for me to gain some kilos eventhough i eat a lot like crap. hahha excuse me, it's not my intention to brag ok? it's just sooo reality. reality of being me-Amalina. my friends perceive me as a girl who likes to eat, eat n eat. even my allowance is majorly spent into buying food. ahhaha another true story of me that u cant afford to miss, eh..





till then, xoxo

kids also know how to park their cars

hahhah. comel kan? my nephews pun park kereta diorang kt tmpt ltk kereta. hmm, imam Al-Ghazali once said that adults should be a good role model to children coz children do what they see from adults. so i guess this pic really means it. the drivers in the family have implemented this saying to the kids. of course la they know how to park their cars well, so the kids follow their behaviour by parking their tiny cars in the garage. maybe diorang takut ngan atuk kot sbb kalau ltk kereta merata2 nti kena marah. ahhaaha.


till then, xoxo

model of the house

amani: mama mena....

me : yes honey,

amani: what do u think about this pic of mine?

me : oh, u looked great in that gown. hahaha, where did u learn posing in that way?

amani: i dont even know, it just came out. hmm do u think i have what it takes to be a model?

me : hahahah i dont know. but i guess u can start modelling in this house first, before ur mom will consider to put u in any modelling agency. that means, u should start taking nice pics in this house first. heheh lets see if atuk is supportive enough about that.

amani: alaaaa.....

p/s- it's the gedikest side of amani. trust me. hahhha

till then, xoxo

my life as a 1 yr old lil precious human being

hi there. it's me amani. rite now im replacing my aunt, mama mena to write in this blog. mama mena already gave me a green light to be part of this blog n i want to share with u about my life n how's gonna be like to turn 1 yr old this year.


my family just made a birthday party for me n it was a blast n i felt grateful to have my own party eventhough i know there are lots of kids out there who are not lucky enough as i am to have a bday celebration at such young age. i want to thank my parents who are very kind n supportive through out this year n thanks for being the greatest parents on earth. thanks mama coz u had me wear this such beautiful gown that every lil girl dreams of it n also the big cake n it was so yummy. i want to thank my grandpa, grandma, my brother, my uncles, my aunts, my maid, n my cousins for always accepting me to be part of this family. oh ya, i forgot to mention, my aunt, mama ipa n family didnt get a chance to be here with us coz they are away at penang. mama ipa, if u r reading this, do know that u r always in my heart n i really love to play with faruq again. ur absence was such a miss. never mind, promise me to visit me later, ok.

this is my big brother, aniq, who loves me dearly like any other big brother does to his lil sis. it's very nice to live with u n play with u. promise me to behave well in the house coz u sometimes give them a severe headache with ur misbehaviour (oh, i am just being honest, am i?). hehheh. but hey, thanks for giving me morning kisses when i wake up every morning n thanks for patting my shoulder when i cry.

this is my cousin, abg aan who also loves me n i cant wait to grow up coz i want to play with u n cycle with u. oh, u r such a good big brother who always grips my hands when im down, just see this pic. that is all so evident in this pic.

hmm what do i love about being a 1 yr old girl? hmmm let me guess, i love being photographed by my parents n aunts where i can do many poses that i like, it will feel great if i can see n evaluate all the photos of mine whether im hot enough to be a model but im still young to do that interpretation. but it's ok la, my mama n aunts always keep my photos safely n make these pics as a collection so that, when i grow up, i can look up for that.

oh ya, this is my favourite. i really love this photo. it makes me kind of cute by posing in that way. oh mama, plz send me to any modelling agency where i can be a model. emm, also, im dying to be a cover girl for ma n pa magazine. eh? am i being too much to ask for? hahhahahah

p/s- owh blogging is fun, i wish i could have my own blog. =P

till then, xoxo

amani.