being overshadowed by someone hurts

i just watched this movie, a league of their own which i have liked it ever since i was 9. the movie is great n makes me want to watch it over n over again. its about 2 small town women moving to the city to be a professional baseball player. oh i forgot to mention, they are sisters, and they are put in the same team. the big sister, dotty is the greatest player in the team, always gets the limelight, n ppl around her really adore her. unlike her little sister, kit, she's just another average player in the team, who has this big potential to shine just like her big sister, n ppl start comparing both of them, n it just makes her even sicker. luckily, dotty always supports her no matter what but ppl around dont seem to care much about kit until kit misunderstands dotty. in the end, kit is transferred to another team n the both teams which are kit's n dotty's meet in the final game. to their dismay, kit performs well n beats her sister up. finally, kit's team becomes the champion. everyone in the end applauses for kit n everyone starts to adore her after winning the game n kit starts to gets her own crown. well things happen for a reason rite, the transfer lets kit shine in her own way......

after watching the movie, i contemplated for a while, thinking that this was kind of similar of what did happen to me in maahad though i moved to it when my sister tika had already moved out from the school but actually she left something that made the teachers compare us in two things-karangan bahasa melayu n sejarah which are the things that tka scored well. during my study in maahad, i wasnt really good at both subjects. cikgu asri always used to tell me, infront of the class yang membuatkan saya terasa sedikit malu dgn diri saya ''amalina, kakak awak atiqah tu dulu selalu skor karangan, selalu buat ayat2 power, tp saya tengok awak ni biasa je.'' hmmm siapa yg x sakit ati kan bila kena compared mcm tu. pastu sejarah plak, cikgu ezana agak hairan bila saya susah nak skor, asyik dapat c je (alaaa last2 masa spm dpt gak A) pastu nak compare2 org ngan kakak sendiri. tp one thing yg membuatkan saya bangga dgn diri sindiri ialah saya tak lemah sgt dlm add math unlike tika she got 6 in spm n i got 4. bukanlah nak bangga diri, tp sekurang kurang nya ada jugakla something that i was good at. nasihat saya kepada guru2 di luar sana, dont expect others to be someone else. ppl shine in different ways. plz start learning the theory of howard gardner which it tells u that humans have 8-9 multiple intelligence.

pengajaran yg saya dpt dari movie a league of their own, kalau dah berkeluarga, dan punya anak-anak, saya tak nak sekolahkan anak-anak saya di bawah satu sekolah yg sama (if only i had much money n could bear the distance to travel to some blocks). takut nanti cikgu2 akan membanding- bandingkan anak2 saya (memanglah kan, dlm 2 org tu mesti ada yg plg menyerlah dan kurang menyerlah), n usually teachers dont give a single chance to the unfortunate. i wont let this happen, coz being in someone's shadow hurts.

itu sahaja coretan dari hati untuk hari ini..

sekian

till next time, xoxo

ruang hati

hey sahabat,
salam, selamat pulang,
ke ruang hatiku ini,
ku setia menunggu.

tersentap sewaktu jahiliah,
terciptalah lagu, pengampunan,
lantas ku bertapa,
ampunilah aku tak sempurna,
ku hamba biasa,
siapa kau yang tentukan ku ke syurga?
kita serupa.

aku sanggup merentas seksa hidup, tanpa berteman,
sabar menanti, aku akur,
walau sekalipun sengsaraku pedih sementara.

maaf ku melintas,
seingatnya aku kau sesat,
angkuh, kau meraban,
memang pun kau sibuk, berpesta,
tak sudah-sudah merana,
manalah kau campakkan pendirian?
ego, kau berangan,
engkau berangan.

aku tulus melintas, rahmat hidup,
tanpa menyesal,
dan ruang hatiku merdeka,
kerna ku tahu seksa ini hanya sementara, sahaja.

hey sahabat,
usahlah kau pulang lagi,
ke ruang hatiku ini,
ku takkan menunggu.






p/s-credits to auburn



till next time, xoxo

is my pink dell gonna be safe?

i was eating durian at the kitchen. suddenly i heard a strange noise coming from upstairs. mcm bunyi brg jatuh je. then i thought,'oh no! what is that? did my laptop fall on the floor?'. alamak, aku tinggalkan aniq sorg2 kat atas tgk thomas kat laptop ak. bad thing was i put the laptop on a chair, sepatutnya ak ltk kat atas lantai nti x dalah jatuh ke, aniq tolak ke kan? so, dgn rase x sdp ati nye smbil tangan aku pegang lagi durian, i went upstairs. alamak!!!!!! laptop aku!!!! jatuh!!!!! ni mesti aniq punye keje ni, tgk thomas smpai x ingat dunia pastu t'tolak laptop ak jatuh atas lantai.



it really makes me worry like hell. x pernah rase risau gila bangang mcm ni. macam mana nasib masa dpn laptopku ini? oh, jgn la rosak!!! gila pathetic!



-emo gila. smpai t'lupa nak basuh pinggan berlambak kat dapur tu-



till next time, xoxo

michael jackson

i woke up this morning at 9.15 n i still felt sleepy. i didnt want to sleep again, n there was nothing could offer the slightest temptation for me to get out of bed. i decided to take my hp n turned on the radio. i needed my ears to be fed with some songs that could prevent me from sleeping. then, i turned to fly fm. there was a michael jackson's song being played n uhhh what a boring song so i turned to hitz fm n still another song from him popping in the air. i was wondering what the hell they kept playing all these old school songs from mj where nowadays they are so many great songs from new comers like lady gaga, katy perry u name it that could be aired instead of mj's. then suddenly something hit me. i now got the answer. the king of pop has just passed away. they made a small tribute for him. the announcement was made by the dj. i didnt burst into tears coz im not his big fan n i would not let my tears out for someone who i dont dearly admire. but i must admit that i grew up with mj's songs n i did listen to his songs back then when i was a kid. i still remember when i was 6, i was singing 'u r not alone' by mj with my sisters till we kept it recorded so that we could listen to that song over n over again. it was one of my sweetest memories of childhood years that i wont forget. if u have not listened to any of his songs, u r not cool.


im really sure that all his fans rite now are mourning for the death. im really sure that all flowers have been sold out n the fans are putting all the flowers infront oh his house. im really sure that all news on tv are broadcasting his death n all the channels on tv will be making a special documentary of his life from being a jackson 5 member till he became a king of pop. im really sure that all celebrities also are making speech, telling all the reporters how the news saddens the entertainment bizz n one thing for sure is no one could replace him. justin timberlake doesnt dance well like mj neither does cris brown.


till next time, xoxo

aqib+amal+amax

oh, i was glaring at the old pics in my pink dell n suddenly these pics of my sweetest companions really took my breath away n nearly brought me into tears. they really remind me of our memories we shared through out the years. there are so many pics that we took together. tons. uncountable. but i must admit these pics are my fav coz they represent our earier progress of lasting friendship. still, until now, we remain close eventhough we are miles away from each other.



hey u, naqibah aqeb urai? oooppsss tersalah la naqibah johari. hehehhe u r the craziest girl i've ever met. disebabkan ko, aku pun gila gak. wat apa kat kulai tu? tolong mak? bagus2. jgn lupa aku kat sini ni. anyway, since u r away, rindu gila nak g clubbing ngan ko. oopps clubbing? no no. we dont club kan? saja je nak sebut istilah clubbing tu. dalam istilah aku clubbing tu same je maksud ngan hanging out. tp bkn kat club, kat malls ke, taman ke u name it. ahhahha. the word 'clubbing' is strictly used for us only ok? kalo ko nak 'clubbing' ngan ak. ko ckp je tau ngan aku. kat coco banana ok? bole blahh...

ini asma al husna. panggil amax je. kadang2 terpanggil mak, pastu org fikir yg dia ni mak aku plak. hhaahh. still remember kat bank muamalat kat kl when some guy thought that we were sisters? ahhah kelakar gila. yela dua2 pakai cermin mata n our face look slightly similar kan? dia ni suka belanja org. baik sgt. i still keep the rough sketch of powerpuff girls that u drew for me. thanks for it! ur bday is on 5th july kan? x lama lagi tu. looking forward to celebrate with u before i head off to upsi, next week gak. tp nak celebrate awal sket.

this pic was taken at otk kan? otk stands for ong tai kim, the most available place to shop in gombak rite instead of sogo ke, mid ke. huhuhu look at aqib's lap. she was holding our assignment. time ni lps printing assignment. sempat lg nak amik gmbr. gambar plg bes yg pernah aku ada.

sekian terima kasih.

till next time, xoxo

terhalang dek kerana hijab?

seriously i think this book is seriously fun n it really catched my eyes from the second i started reading till the second i finished reading it. its about a girl who has a strength to wear a hijab while others think that its too weird to do so. well what im gonna say rite now is it really does happen in everywhere where ppl still think that wearing a hijab is too corny. i have this one friend who wanted to apply for a job in a boutique, sadly, she wasnt accepted just because she wore a hijab at that time n the owner thought wearing a hijab wasnt glamorous n looked like a makcik selling kuih kat tepi jln n she said it was so out of fashion n she said it was a fashion crime n bla bla bla. of course la my friend was devastated, me either felt that too. terhalang dek kerana hijab? salah ke pakai tudung? x nampak cantik? does it really matter to the owner? nasihat saya kpd owner butik tu, ubahla pemikiran anda. lmbt laun anda juga yg akan menyarung tudung di kepala sendiri.

till next time, xoxo

gila annoying

hey u,
go away la,
get a life,
dont mess with me,
y u r still there?
u know i always win n u r just a plain loser kan?
cant get enough of this ke?
tak serik2 lagi?
My God, u r so funny la,
org lain sibuk nak ke depan, ko pulak sibuk nak ke belakang,
macam tak da wawasan,
sampai bila2 pun u wont succeed trust me.





u suck, celaka.


till next time, xoxo

i miss...

so the gig didnt turn out as i wished it could be, coz i didnt bump into estranged n i didnt get to watch them perform, coz i had to go back early in a sense of fearing of my parents that might be freaking out if they found out their daughter was in a rock show!


the gig goers were kind of shit. they did some moshpit n body surfing till i was scared. i could not stand this anymore n i thought being in this gig was really a bad idea. anyway, it was kind of sinful for me, kan? so, i made up my mind get out from the gig to perform prayer, since it was already 3pm n i hadnt prayed n takutkan Allah The Almighty sgt2.

after i prayed, i went back with tka, tp still estranged blum perform lg, n the other band was still on the stage n i thought x pelah, lain kali bole jumpe estranged. rase x rugi ape2 pun kan, drpd x solat, baik miss estranged perform.

lps ni klu nak jumpe diorg, u better make sure that it wont clash ur prayer schedule ye cik mena.


n im gonna miss all these craps...

im gonna miss din n his friendliness,
im gonna miss andy n his gorgeous n goodlooking personality,
im gonna miss hanafi n his shyness,
im gonna miss rich n his singing sensation,


waaaa ble nak jumpe diorg lagi ni...????


till next time, xoxo

father's day

i never celebrated father's day before,
i think it was too mean not to do that but trust me i didnt mean to,
deep inside my heart i loved him dearly,
just because maybe at that time i was shy enough to show some affection that a father needed most from his daughter.

i still remember when i was a kid, he bought me a barbie doll that all girls were so desperate to get one,
but i was the lucky one to have that,
and i thought he was the coolest dad in the world.

and still, he is the coolest one,
thanks for being the coolest dad for me for 21 years,
sorry for having so much dramas through out these years,
but i guess it really makes our strings attach.

father's day is just around the corner,
i only have 5 days to churn my mind up to think something that can celebrate his big day.


p/s- uja, if u r reading this, gv me any idea for this, sure u r expert in this n im not.




till then, xoxo

cancel ur vacation please...

she says she doesnt want to cancel her flight with ayah to beijing coz she already paid off the tickets n it lets me feel worried about them backpacking to overseas while the H1N1 virus has been attacking worldwide.





till then, xoxo

x da nafsu makan durian

i thought i could stuff my mouth with loads of durians, but i failed to have the guts to finish eating them though i had this passion to eat durians burst inside me n i found out this passion lied to me.


as a conclusion, saya tak ada nafsu untuk makan durian walaupun durian berlambak kat dapur tu.



till then, xoxo

durian

i feel bored staying at house before i go back to upsi on 4th july. boredom really smothers me till i feel like crap. so i decided to follow mama n ayah to go to paklang's house at melaka, picking some durians at his house. so this kind of really excites me since i havent went there since raya last year, i guess.


muaz is going back to school after having a school break. hahaah padan muka budak kecik.. g tdo awal..boo....


p/s- me n mama are kind of pissed off after makcik sarah is getting on our last nerve when she has kind of delayed my driving lesson that should have been finished earlier before im off to uni. im still wondering whether i can finish up all the lessons n take the jpj test- another undesired behaviour of malay ppl, i think. -malay ppl always like to procrastinate, do u? wahai org melayu sekalian....


need to have a nice n warm sleep before rocking on our journey tomorrow.


till then, xoxo.

kantoi!

i dedicate this lyrics to all cheaters, liars, n players. feel it!



semalam i call you, you tak answer,
you kata you keluar pergi dinner,
you kata you keluar dengan kawan you,
but when i called tommy he said it wasnt true.

so i drove my car pergi damansara,
tommy kata maybe you tengok bola,
tapi bila i sampai you, you tak ada
lagilah i jadi gila.

so i called and called sampai you answer,
you kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar,
my phone was on silent, i was at the gym,
tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain.

sudahlah sayang, i dont believe you,
i've always known your words were never true,
why am i with you, i pun tak tahu,
no wonder lah my friends pun tak suka you.

so i guess, that's the end of our story,
akhir kata she accepted his apology,
tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too,
with her ex-boyfriend's bestfriend-tommy.





comel kan?


till then, xoxo

selamat bertunang kawanku!

mardiah sayang, sori x dpt pergi ur engagement day, hope that i will get the chance to attend ur wedding.

congratz fren, im so hepi for u..

till next time, xoxo

sushi yg sangat sedap!

hmmm. im turning into a sushi addict rite now. i dont have any idea of why i do eat it regularly. FYI, i used to hate eating sushi just because i wasnt into eating some weird stuff n i thought sushi was one of it. for me, it looked like crap, seriously. but when i tried to eat a lil bite of it, it turned me on... waaaa sedapnya.. btul la org kate x kenal maka x cinta... hehhehe. this pack of sushi was bought by ima at alamanda. she bought it at carrefour coz it is not pricey laa compared to sushi king yg jauh lbh mahal dari tu. tunggu laaa ble ada duit banyak sket, so i'll be indulging myself to eat at sushi king. hhuuhhu. actually this pic was taken after i already had my dinner which i was kind of full eating nasi berlaukkan ikan keli masak lemak dan ayam masak merah tp i could not resist to eat sushi afterwards. tamak btul! x pelah, it doesnt really scare me though, coz it's hard for me to gain some kilos eventhough i eat a lot like crap. hahha excuse me, it's not my intention to brag ok? it's just sooo reality. reality of being me-Amalina. my friends perceive me as a girl who likes to eat, eat n eat. even my allowance is majorly spent into buying food. ahhaha another true story of me that u cant afford to miss, eh..





till then, xoxo

kids also know how to park their cars

hahhah. comel kan? my nephews pun park kereta diorang kt tmpt ltk kereta. hmm, imam Al-Ghazali once said that adults should be a good role model to children coz children do what they see from adults. so i guess this pic really means it. the drivers in the family have implemented this saying to the kids. of course la they know how to park their cars well, so the kids follow their behaviour by parking their tiny cars in the garage. maybe diorang takut ngan atuk kot sbb kalau ltk kereta merata2 nti kena marah. ahhaaha.


till then, xoxo

model of the house

amani: mama mena....

me : yes honey,

amani: what do u think about this pic of mine?

me : oh, u looked great in that gown. hahaha, where did u learn posing in that way?

amani: i dont even know, it just came out. hmm do u think i have what it takes to be a model?

me : hahahah i dont know. but i guess u can start modelling in this house first, before ur mom will consider to put u in any modelling agency. that means, u should start taking nice pics in this house first. heheh lets see if atuk is supportive enough about that.

amani: alaaaa.....

p/s- it's the gedikest side of amani. trust me. hahhha

till then, xoxo

my life as a 1 yr old lil precious human being

hi there. it's me amani. rite now im replacing my aunt, mama mena to write in this blog. mama mena already gave me a green light to be part of this blog n i want to share with u about my life n how's gonna be like to turn 1 yr old this year.


my family just made a birthday party for me n it was a blast n i felt grateful to have my own party eventhough i know there are lots of kids out there who are not lucky enough as i am to have a bday celebration at such young age. i want to thank my parents who are very kind n supportive through out this year n thanks for being the greatest parents on earth. thanks mama coz u had me wear this such beautiful gown that every lil girl dreams of it n also the big cake n it was so yummy. i want to thank my grandpa, grandma, my brother, my uncles, my aunts, my maid, n my cousins for always accepting me to be part of this family. oh ya, i forgot to mention, my aunt, mama ipa n family didnt get a chance to be here with us coz they are away at penang. mama ipa, if u r reading this, do know that u r always in my heart n i really love to play with faruq again. ur absence was such a miss. never mind, promise me to visit me later, ok.

this is my big brother, aniq, who loves me dearly like any other big brother does to his lil sis. it's very nice to live with u n play with u. promise me to behave well in the house coz u sometimes give them a severe headache with ur misbehaviour (oh, i am just being honest, am i?). hehheh. but hey, thanks for giving me morning kisses when i wake up every morning n thanks for patting my shoulder when i cry.

this is my cousin, abg aan who also loves me n i cant wait to grow up coz i want to play with u n cycle with u. oh, u r such a good big brother who always grips my hands when im down, just see this pic. that is all so evident in this pic.

hmm what do i love about being a 1 yr old girl? hmmm let me guess, i love being photographed by my parents n aunts where i can do many poses that i like, it will feel great if i can see n evaluate all the photos of mine whether im hot enough to be a model but im still young to do that interpretation. but it's ok la, my mama n aunts always keep my photos safely n make these pics as a collection so that, when i grow up, i can look up for that.

oh ya, this is my favourite. i really love this photo. it makes me kind of cute by posing in that way. oh mama, plz send me to any modelling agency where i can be a model. emm, also, im dying to be a cover girl for ma n pa magazine. eh? am i being too much to ask for? hahhahahah

p/s- owh blogging is fun, i wish i could have my own blog. =P

till then, xoxo

amani.

pesawat

he's gonna be a pilot one day, insya Allah

till then, xoxo

hanging out with anis

i had a priviledge to meet my best friend anis who has been with me for 2 years and a half in iic n currently is studying at msu. so we met last friday at mid n i think this was sort of our sweet reunion coz we havent met for about 6 months la, so we really appreciated this 9 hours meeting n did normal stuff like best friends would do like watching movie, gossiping, window shopping, n the list goes on. oh ya i forgot to mention, we watched syurga cinta together in cinema n the movie was ok la, eventhough sepi (we watched it last time together) is way more better than syurga cinta, but the movie really made me spend the quality time with this such good friend of mine n it seemed like i wanted to hang out with her all day long.. hahhaahhah

this is me, looking kind of cute in this shirt. hahhahha. we really wanted to take pics in private so we managed to find a nice toilet that has a room for rest, getting make up done n stuff n it's very nice n cosy place laa. hmm i was still working out on how to make the camera love me...

this is her, looking pretty in this outfit. heheee

hhaahhah anis, u r so funny la, u always take pics with ur one leg comes infront n the other one is hiding inside.

hmm as the conclusion, i really love this girl. she really represents my happiness n joy. i hope to c her soon n we're gonna watch a new movie together which is orphan...

anis-if u r reading this, plz leave a comment. i really appreciate ur kindness.

till then, xoxo

where's the oreo cheese cake?

last friday, i went to mid with my bff, n wanted to buy this cake which is oreo cheese cake for my sis tka, since i already promised her to buy that one for her upcoming bday. so, me n my friend managed to go to secret recipe n we were having our tea time there, i had a slice of walnut brownies while my friend had a slice of choc fudge. yummy!!! this had to be one of my craving desserts since i havent eaten scrt recipe for 5 months. while we were eating, i ordered the waiter to pack the other 2 slices of cakes which were oreo cheese n choc cheese for me to take away n the waiter obliged. then, i went back home, n i presented these cakes to my sis.

to my dismay, i found out another cake instead of oreo cheese had been put there. OMG. scret recipe had made a biggest mistake to its customer! i felt like i wanted to kill the waiter named AMIN. thank god he's kinda cute, so i would not mind not wanting to sue him. hahhaahah but the gud thing was, choc cheese was there, n wasnt replaced by another cake. so, the cakes were just eaten by my sisters n my nephews. i felt sorry for tka, for not having oreo cheese. tka shared her choc cheese with ima since tka has this propensity which is she has a difficulty in eating desserts, n she seldomly finishes them n she prefers to eat in a pair. n my nephews ate the banana choc cake n it just left me eating my big apple donuts. yummy!!!

today is your bday!!!!. hepi 24th bday sis. may Allah bless u in whatever u do. thanks for the good things that u have done to me. love ya.

p/s- i feel soooo irritated coz, i havent found any slice of almond coffee cake, yet. actually walnut brownies really bores me.

till then, xoxo.

decode

the truth is hiding in your eyes,
and you are hanging it on your tongue,
just boiling in my blood,
do you think that i can't see.


what kind of man that you are,
if you are a man at all,
well i'll figure this one out,
on my own.

how do we get here,
when i used to know you so well.


till then, xoxo

it wasnt their fault, hello.

Jawablah!: Bengang dakwaan 'gila mikrofon'
Oleh Farihad Shalla Mahmudfarihad@bharian.com.my

Andy Estranged bangkit beri penjelasan ekoran gosip sewaktu konsert Rhythm Of Unity MARAH sungguh kumpulan Estranged apabila mendapat tahu ada gosip di akhbar yang mengatakan kumpulan mereka syok sendiri sewaktu menjayakan konsert Rhythm Of Unity yang berlangsung di kawasan meletak kereta di Stadium Nasional Bukit Jalil, 23 Mei lalu. Berdasarkan apa yang disiarkan menerusi gosip Normah Bechok dalam ruangan Dengarnya...., Estranged dikatakan ‘gila mikrofon’ apabila menyanyikan lima lagu walaupun sudah diberi amaran oleh penganjur, eBlitz Communications Sdn. Bhd yang mahukan mereka menyanyikan dua buah lagu saja.

Kesannya, kumpulan yang membuat persembahan Estranged iaitu Slank hanya menyanyikan dua buah lagu saja dan itu mengundang kemarahan penonton yang begitu setia menantikan persembahan kumpulan dari Indonesia itu sejak awal petang lagi. Terperangkap dalam situasi apatah lagi ini kali pertama menganjurkan sebuah konsert, eBlitz meletakkan sepenuh kesalahan itu kepada Estranged dan akibatnya, nama kumpulan yang popular dengan lagu terbaru mereka, Yang Pernah dan Aurora ini tercemar sekali gus memberikan gambaran buruk kepada band indie yang lain. Merasakan diri mereka teraniaya, pemain dram kumpulan ini, Andy bangkit memberikan penjelasan kepada Hip serta menerangkan apa sebenarnya yang berlaku pada malam konsert itu berlangsung.


Hip: Mungkin Andy boleh beri penjelasan yang mengatakan kumpulan Estranged buat persembahan syok sendiri sewaktu konsert Rhythm Of Unity berlangsung?

Andy: Sebenarnya kami sendiri terkejut apabila mendapat tahu mengenai gosip itu kerana setahu kami pihak penganjur tidak memberi sebarang amaran. Sebaliknya mereka bersetuju apabila kami katakan mahu menyanyikan lima buah lagu. Dan andai benar mereka kecewa atau terkilan dengan Estranged, mengapa ketika kami mahu pulang, mereka melayani kami seperti biasa, bersalam dan tidak membangkitkan sebarang rasa tidak puas hati masa itu. Jadi apabila tiba-tiba muncul kenyataan di akhbar yang mengatakan mereka kecewa apabila kami menyanyi melebihi waktu yang ditetapkan sehingga menyebabkan kumpulan Slank terpaksa menyanyi dua buah lagu saja, itu membuatkan kami bengang kerana ia jelas mencemarkan nama kami di mata khalayak.

Hip: Takkan pihak Estranged tidak dimaklumkan langsung mengenai syarat itu?

Andy: Apa yang saya tahu mereka tidak mengeluarkan arahan apa-apa. Bukan saja kami tetapi pengurus kami juga tidak dimaklumkan apa-apa. Malah kami sendiri tidak dimaklumkan bahawa mereka hanya mendapat permit dari pihak DBKL hanyalah setakat jam 12.30 tengah malam. Kalau benar mereka ada beritahu, takkan kami nak buat kepala sendiri?

Hip: Tak ada usaha untuk bersemuka dengan mereka serta meminta penjelasan atas apa yang terjadi?

Andy: Sebaik saja gosip itu tersiar di akhbar, pengurus kami ada berjumpa dengan wakil penganjur dan mereka ada berjanji untuk memohon maaf secara terbuka tapi saya tak nampak pun mereka berbuat demikian. Sebenarnya sejak awal lagi kami sudah sangsi dengan penganjuran konsert ini. Bayangkan belum pernah kami membuat konsert tanpa sebarang sesi sound check. Tapi untuk konsert ini, kami tidak berkesempatan untuk sound check disebabkan beberapa masalah. Ada ke patut mereka suruh kami buat sound check jam 3.30 pagi pada hari berlangsungnya konsert? Kami tak buat pun. Kemudian mereka menyuruh kami bersedia pada jam 12 tengah hari untuk sound check namun kami terkejut apabila mendapati pentas yang disediakan sedang dibuka. Saya difahamkan khabarnya pihak pembekal marah apabila pihak penganjur tidak menjelaskan bayaran dan disebabkan itulah mereka membuka kembali pentas yang dipasang. Lebih teruk lagi apabila pentas hanya baru dipasang ketika jam 5 petang di mana waktu itu sepatutnya konsert sudah bermula. Di sini menunjukkan yang penganjur sebenarnya tidak profesional dalam menjalankan kerja mereka.

Hip: Mungkin mereka masih baru dalam bidang ini menyebabkan konsert anjuran mereka menjadi kucar kacir?

Andy: Saya faham keadaan ini dan disebabkan itulah walaupun pada peringkat awal saya lihat banyak masalah yang berlaku namun atas dasar ingin memberi sokongan terhadap usaha mereka menganjurkan konsert untuk band indie, jadi kami teruskan juga membuat persembahan. Tapi lain pula jadinya apabila kami yang dipersalahkan atas apa yang berlaku. Saya juga ingin menyentuh soal bayaran. Berdasarkan perjanjian awal, penganjur akan menjelaskan baki bayaran selepas konsert berakhir. Namun sehingga kini tiada khabar yang diterima. Setakat ini mereka hanya menjelaskan bayaran sebanyak 30 peratus. Kami masih menunggu dan jika mereka gagal melunaskan bayaran yang dijanjikan, kami tidak teragak-agak untuk mengambil tindakan.

Hip: Bagaimana pula dengan reaksi kumpulan Slank sendiri?

Andy: Pihak pengurusan kami ada bertemu dengan pengurusan mereka dan nampaknya mereka tidak menyalahkan kami dalam hal ini. Mereka memahami situasi yang berlaku. Cuma kami risau bagaimana penerimaan media di negara Indonesia. Kami bimbang jika mereka menulis bukan-bukan mengenai kami hanya berdasarkan kenyataan yang dikeluarkan pihak penganjur.

Hip: Serik untuk bekerjasama dengan penganjur seperti ini pada masa akan datang?

Andy: Bukan serik tetapi mungkin selepas ini kami kena berhati-hati supaya pisang tidak berbuah dua kali. Kami tidak mahu disebabkan sikap tidak profesional pihak penganjur, kami menjadi mangsa. Kami tidak mahu disebabkan mereka, nama kumpulan Indie lain turut tercemar. Pastinya selepas ini ada penganjur yang berat untuk mengundang band Indie membuat persembahan kerana bimbang masalah serupa akan berlaku. Apapun dengan penjelasan ini, kami harap semua pihak mendapat gambaran yang benar terhadap apa yang berlaku



whatever it is, estranged is not guilty, i can feel it even though i wasnt there at the concert. the people who accused estranged are nothing but a psychopath, son of a bitch, n they r trying to put estranged down.


go estranged! i'll always support u guys, no matter what.




p/s-i wish i could be there too, watching ur energetic performance is such pleasure to the eyes.



till then, xoxo.

the misuse of streamyx

well, it seems like the streamyx thingy has taken its toll on me. im such a misuser. im misusing this privilage. u know, i never felt this good before. before this we used a dial up connection n it wasnt really good la coz it was a bit lembap. having a fast internet connection really makes me feel better-i can blog as much as i can, i can chat with my friends on ym, n the worst thing which is my guilty pleasure is i can watch my favourite videos on you tube. hahahha, i cant afford to miss it. last nite i watched my fav filipino drama, pangako sayo till 4 in the morning n it was totally a bliss! but im worried that this thing is killing me from not doing something which is vital than surfing the internet 24/7. well here are the consequences of my bad habit (which i enjoy doing it!).

1) i love watching videos-estranged, disney cartoons, dramas, songs n the list goes on. so i end up logging on to youtube. it's a must for me if im surfing the internet. watching these things really make my eyes wide open n i wont feel sleepy n it seems like i sleep only 2-3 hours at night. it's indeed not a good thing for me coz after praying subuh prayer, i'll continue my sleep untill 12 am, n i'll feel guilty afterwards coz i let my mum cook for lunch alone whereas im thoughtful enough to help her cook too. sorry mama, ur daughter is trying to wake up early in order to help u finish preparing lunch! but how? i dont know, sometimes i hate myself for not having the courage to do something that can make my mum be proud of me, like cooking.

2) i've always wanted to indulge myself in some spiritual things like qiam, reading quran, mathurat n stuff n i didnt have much time to do that kind of thing back in upsi where i was smothered by study n exam n i was thinking that i wanted to do that during holiday. n now i barely do that n im kind of lazy to please Allah by doing these recommended things n it sounds like im disgracing mayself. Ya Allah, plz forgive me.

3) i just bought a good book which is 'does my head look big in this?' n proudly say that i havent finished reading it n it's very embarrassing because i bought this book about 3 weeks ago n i should have finished reading this book a day after i bought it. huh! i've always been keen to books n reading a new book only takes me 1-2 days to read it (im not saying im a fast n good reader, i always make sure that my dictionary is always with me when im reading). it feels like i want to slap myself.

4) there's a writing competion held by nst paper n i really want to join it. until now, i havent made any progression to start writing the essay because im enjoying myself surfing the internet! i hope that i can finish writing it since the due date is on 26th june. can i make this possible? i dont know...

5) i have a passion which is writing short stories n i want to start writing my own story because the idea is there n is waiting to be put on a paper n is viciously procrastinated by me having too much fun on surfing the internet.

ok. it ends here. i hope i wont screw things up again n i want to fix myself if only i dont pamper myself a lot by sticking infront of this innocent pink dell. thanks for letting me get my frustration out. gudbye.


till then, xoxo