negativity is killing me..

hari ini, sy tolong mama masak sbb esok kan da nak raya haji. before that i made a promise to my mum that i would wake up earlier in the morning (memandangkan sy selalu bgn at 12pm juz because of i cant take a slightest temptation to go off bed). so i woke up at 9 am, feeling dizzy sebab mlm td tdo pkul 2.45 (was watching sundal bolong) n made myself go to the kitchen...kerja2 menggoreng dan memotong bawang, halia, n stuff pun da bermula....

mama really relied on me to help her prepare the meals disebabkan kakak2 sy pergi bekerja. ayah buat ketupat n it just left me n mama in the kitchen. sambil2 menggoreng ayam utk dibuat ayam kicap, sy pun ambil kesempatan utk makan breakfast iaitu pancakes from mcd yg dibeli oleh angah. entah mcm mana lps tu sy tiba2 rasa sakit perut..then i made an excuse from mama to go to the toilet.. next i took a shower n changed my clothes n tiba2 rasa mengantuk n terus landing kat katil...zzzzzzz...

sy bgn pkul 2.05 pm dan fikir kerja masak ayam kicap x siap lg... i headed to the kitchen, feeling a pang of agony n annoyed... sy pun masak dlm keadaan x da mood. sampai bibik pun takut nak tegur..hahah dia pun terkejut tengok cara sy membaling bawang2 dlm periuk utk ditumis...tengah masak2, tiba2 kucing sy curi satu ketul ayam kat dapur, i was pissed n said the F word...n then i said S__T. wow..i supposed i should not have said the words so loud that everyone could hear the words.. i know everyone swears but i just crossed the line...i even made faces to my sister, just to let her know how tired i was doing all these stuff...i know what i did was wrong n i just could not help myself out. it just came out..

i thought, i was just making things up. i always make the smallest become the biggest...in the end, it turned out well n the lauk tasted really good n i could smile again. sy tahu sy x patut melepaskan kemarahan sy kat org lain..kita kena ikhlas buat sesuatu kan? n i learn from it..mistakes dont mean a thing if u dont regret them..

to my family, i really am sorry...






till then..